[Sollux had been staying up for nights since he got his troll body back. He couldn't stay up forever, but he could at least try. The nightmares were pretty bad and he wished that he had some sopor to help but he didn't. Soon enough, he reached his limit to how long he could stay up and decided to take a nap. Just a small little nap couldn't hurt, right?
Not exactly.
This dream was much more vivid then any other dream he has had. It was more vivid then any prophetic dream, any nightmare, even when he was on Derse or Prospit.
He was back in Mayfield, back on that terrible day when everything was destroyed. All the buildings were burned down, there was no grass growing in any yards. But unlike before, he was alone.
Nonsense, my boy. You are never alone.
He turns around to see someone he recognizes and yet... he doesn't. He knows those four horns, those bifurcated eyes and the yellowish tint to his grey skin but the troll standing before him wasn't someone he's met. He's hears stories about his ancestor, the great Psiioniic, best friend to the Signless and eventually slave to the Condesce. He smiles a warm, friendly smile. A smile that Sollux can definitely trust. Sollux hesitantly walks forward as the scenery shifts around them, shifts to Alternia.
Your friends are in danger young one. Everyone is in danger.
The scene around them is playing back some of Sollux's memories. It shows Sollux and Aradia at a digging site, the day before Aradia's death. They're both smiling, smiling friendly, happy smiles. There's a small flicker and Aradia's smile turns into a frown but quickly back into a smile. It was there for only a brief second but it was there. The scene changes to the time of her death, her coming over to see him happily, him burning her and her hive. It was hard for Sollux to look at but soon enough it changes to them getting into the game. All of the twelve trolls are there, reaching for the prize, everyone waiting in anticipation, Jack almost killing them, them in the Veil pestering the kids; it all goes by so fast. Soon enough, the scene changes to where Sollux last remembered, he was driving the Veil to the Green Sun. His friends watched him in silence, all of their expressions showing some form of complete and utter despair as they watched their friend slowly waste his own life. But. Something happens, something terrible. They were all supposed to make it to the Green Sun and have a great Rendezvous with the humans but the Veil ends up crashing into the sun, slowly lighting ablaze. The screams of the few trolls on the Veil could be heard, the screams of them as they all slowly burned to death. It was Sollux's fault that this happened; he messed up while moving the Veil. He should have payed more attention and then maybe... maybe they all wouldn't have died. Sollux opens his mouth to say something but Psiioniic holds his finger to his lips, shushing him.
There's no need to fret, you can save them. I know you don't want this to happen to your friends, my child. Watch closely.
It goes back to that one moment, that one moment of the two digging at the site but. It was only Aradia. The scene switches to her death but there wasn't a death, Sollux never arrived to her house. Instead of switching through the other scenes, new scenes play. New scenes of the other eleven trolls living out happy lives on Alternia. They're all smiling, filling quadrants, having great lives.
Do you see the difference? If you let go, if you let go of the life you had, your friends would be safe. Without you, they couldn't have made that silly little game and they're safe from any danger that you went through.
The scene switches back to Mayfield, all glowing and happy. The other eleven trolls all happily enjoying their Christmases, all of them having giant smiles on their faces, even Aradia.
You'll get what you always wanted young one. You won't be in the way of anyone anymore. They won't even know about anyone named Sollux Captor, they'll all live great lives without you.
He kneels down and holds Sollux by the shoulders, looking right into his eyes.
That's what you want, right? You want them to be happy, to be safe? It will hurt for a bit child, but isn't a little bit of pain worth it? Won't you sacrifice yourself for their safety?
Sollux looks to the scene of all of them so happy, so much better off without him. He looks back at Psiioniic.]
Not exactly.
This dream was much more vivid then any other dream he has had. It was more vivid then any prophetic dream, any nightmare, even when he was on Derse or Prospit.
He was back in Mayfield, back on that terrible day when everything was destroyed. All the buildings were burned down, there was no grass growing in any yards. But unlike before, he was alone.
Nonsense, my boy. You are never alone.
He turns around to see someone he recognizes and yet... he doesn't. He knows those four horns, those bifurcated eyes and the yellowish tint to his grey skin but the troll standing before him wasn't someone he's met. He's hears stories about his ancestor, the great Psiioniic, best friend to the Signless and eventually slave to the Condesce. He smiles a warm, friendly smile. A smile that Sollux can definitely trust. Sollux hesitantly walks forward as the scenery shifts around them, shifts to Alternia.
Your friends are in danger young one. Everyone is in danger.
The scene around them is playing back some of Sollux's memories. It shows Sollux and Aradia at a digging site, the day before Aradia's death. They're both smiling, smiling friendly, happy smiles. There's a small flicker and Aradia's smile turns into a frown but quickly back into a smile. It was there for only a brief second but it was there. The scene changes to the time of her death, her coming over to see him happily, him burning her and her hive. It was hard for Sollux to look at but soon enough it changes to them getting into the game. All of the twelve trolls are there, reaching for the prize, everyone waiting in anticipation, Jack almost killing them, them in the Veil pestering the kids; it all goes by so fast. Soon enough, the scene changes to where Sollux last remembered, he was driving the Veil to the Green Sun. His friends watched him in silence, all of their expressions showing some form of complete and utter despair as they watched their friend slowly waste his own life. But. Something happens, something terrible. They were all supposed to make it to the Green Sun and have a great Rendezvous with the humans but the Veil ends up crashing into the sun, slowly lighting ablaze. The screams of the few trolls on the Veil could be heard, the screams of them as they all slowly burned to death. It was Sollux's fault that this happened; he messed up while moving the Veil. He should have payed more attention and then maybe... maybe they all wouldn't have died. Sollux opens his mouth to say something but Psiioniic holds his finger to his lips, shushing him.
There's no need to fret, you can save them. I know you don't want this to happen to your friends, my child. Watch closely.
It goes back to that one moment, that one moment of the two digging at the site but. It was only Aradia. The scene switches to her death but there wasn't a death, Sollux never arrived to her house. Instead of switching through the other scenes, new scenes play. New scenes of the other eleven trolls living out happy lives on Alternia. They're all smiling, filling quadrants, having great lives.
Do you see the difference? If you let go, if you let go of the life you had, your friends would be safe. Without you, they couldn't have made that silly little game and they're safe from any danger that you went through.
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You'll get what you always wanted young one. You won't be in the way of anyone anymore. They won't even know about anyone named Sollux Captor, they'll all live great lives without you.
He kneels down and holds Sollux by the shoulders, looking right into his eyes.
That's what you want, right? You want them to be happy, to be safe? It will hurt for a bit child, but isn't a little bit of pain worth it? Won't you sacrifice yourself for their safety?
Sollux looks to the scene of all of them so happy, so much better off without him. He looks back at Psiioniic.]
Yes, I will.
[The Psiioniic smiles and gives him a hug.
That's my boy.]
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