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Im so fucking lost,I dont know what to even do with my self anymore. I sit here playing wow all day every day,I hate that its all I have the motivation to do. what can I do to force my self to grow the fuck up.
I want new friends, and I miss my old friends that I so conveniently forgot all about the 4 years I spend with her.Was I ever even truly content when I was with her? I have the best memorys of my life with her and she took the best years of mine,and if I felt so distant from her near the end why do I even care and why is my heart "broken"?? all the drunken breakdowns i put her threw..maybe I cant blame her.its been almost 3 months its time to forget about her, right? Its just so hard when every memory is attached to her presence in my life. I feel so alone, I miss companionship of another human being.
I wish I knew how to dig my way out of this debilitating depression.. but i dont, ill just delve deeper in to it.
[wipes a tear from my eye and takes another drink]
I want new friends, and I miss my old friends that I so conveniently forgot all about the 4 years I spend with her.Was I ever even truly content when I was with her? I have the best memorys of my life with her and she took the best years of mine,and if I felt so distant from her near the end why do I even care and why is my heart "broken"?? all the drunken breakdowns i put her threw..maybe I cant blame her.its been almost 3 months its time to forget about her, right? Its just so hard when every memory is attached to her presence in my life. I feel so alone, I miss companionship of another human being.
I wish I knew how to dig my way out of this debilitating depression.. but i dont, ill just delve deeper in to it.
[wipes a tear from my eye and takes another drink]