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All day this has been with me. I had a horrifying dream last night of Kevin. I was, and he happened to be at the Munchie, and it was just absolute ceaseless torment the entire time. Kevin walking by and slapping my beer off the table, Kevin whispering "Die Bitch" as I passed... Kev purposely humiliating me...Me crying and begging him to leave me alone (which was odd because in the typical 'Kev dream' Im pleading for forgiveness) I seriously can't take it. I thought a while back that I had achieved some sort of closure or relief from the dream persecution, because we spoke for the first time in a very long time and he informed me that everythings cool...he harbors no grudge or hatred towards me... blah blah blah... I even had a dream where we made peace. I dont understand at all. After last night, I think I might even say I preferred the cold, indifferent, unforgiving dreams. I hope I never dream of him again. If that mind erasing place in Eternal Sunshine really existed, I'm pretty sure I'd have him erased. Kill me.