Weary
Found out yesterday that the JET Programme limit has been extended to five years, from three. I knew it was possible to do two more years as an elementary school ALT, but now they're saying you can carry on in your existing job. It's a big thing, really.
I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed and weary lately, and before I heard the news I was quietly accepting of my fate. I was even contemplating NOT bringing Midori home with me, and was cynically laughing at myself for even thinking that Shige and I would stand the test of time and distance. But now that I could stay an extra year (or two) I feel a bit more like I have some breathing space. I wouldn't have to worry right now about starting the anti-rabies vaccine and that vet bollocks for Midori, and about leaving Japan with a new-ish relationship. But then there's the issue of staying FOUR YEARS IN JAPAN, which is extremely daunting. It would mean I am now just over half way. It's hard to explain. Maybe I'm just getting tired of Japan. Maybe I need something new in my life, a new challenge. I feel like I'm just bumming about here, and someday I should get on with my real life.
Getting a little desperate for someone to take the kitten off my hands. Midori keeps beating him up and they're always miaowing at each and running amok around the flat. And I'm just tired. I haven't had an unbroken night's sleep in two months, and I'm more than had my fill of "but it's good practice for when you have kids!" I have no idea how single mothers cope, but I sure as hell know I couldn't do it.
Only six weeks or so left to the JLPT (big Japanese test- last year I took the third level, and this year it's the second). Sometimes I think, "yeah, I can do this" and then I wonder what the hell I am thinking. I've been studying kanji for months and I have definitely improved, but there's still so much grammar to cram. And no time at school to study.
I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed and weary lately, and before I heard the news I was quietly accepting of my fate. I was even contemplating NOT bringing Midori home with me, and was cynically laughing at myself for even thinking that Shige and I would stand the test of time and distance. But now that I could stay an extra year (or two) I feel a bit more like I have some breathing space. I wouldn't have to worry right now about starting the anti-rabies vaccine and that vet bollocks for Midori, and about leaving Japan with a new-ish relationship. But then there's the issue of staying FOUR YEARS IN JAPAN, which is extremely daunting. It would mean I am now just over half way. It's hard to explain. Maybe I'm just getting tired of Japan. Maybe I need something new in my life, a new challenge. I feel like I'm just bumming about here, and someday I should get on with my real life.
Getting a little desperate for someone to take the kitten off my hands. Midori keeps beating him up and they're always miaowing at each and running amok around the flat. And I'm just tired. I haven't had an unbroken night's sleep in two months, and I'm more than had my fill of "but it's good practice for when you have kids!" I have no idea how single mothers cope, but I sure as hell know I couldn't do it.
Only six weeks or so left to the JLPT (big Japanese test- last year I took the third level, and this year it's the second). Sometimes I think, "yeah, I can do this" and then I wonder what the hell I am thinking. I've been studying kanji for months and I have definitely improved, but there's still so much grammar to cram. And no time at school to study.