And when the stars fall I will lie awake...You're my shooting star
Warning: Brutal honesty and some whininess ahead
So today people actually ended up coming over! That was exciting. Kela, Danielle, Kristi, and Chris came over. We swam, ate pizza, played ddr and badminton, etc. Twas fun. Sadly, Kristi, Chris, and Danielle all left around 9:30 when they got there at like 7-7:30. That was kind of depressing. I did have a fun time though, and hope everyone else did too.
Now for potential whininess. For some reason, I have this paranoia that people don't like me and always talk about me behind my back. I mean, there are plenty of people who think everyone likes them when in actuality no one can stand them. They have no idea about this. I can't help but worry that I am one of them. Everytime I try to make plans or something, I'm always terrified they'll fall through. When my friends go out or something and don't invite me, I get incredibly upset. I know this is ridiculous, I can't be expected to get invited to everything, but I dunno. I have this thing where I'm so terrified no one likes me. I know that I have friends and I love them to death, but there's just this thing in the back of my head... For instance Kela's away message said something about something being disappointing and I feel like it was today at my house. I hate being paranoid!
Please note this is not for pity and I am not mad at anyone. This is my livejournal and I'm just expressing my emotions and frustration at this paranoia that I seem to have. This is my lj so if you don't like it you can sod off.
This summer has been so much fun so far and way better than last summer. I don't mean to be whiney, but I just feel so weird lately.
Sigh.
So today people actually ended up coming over! That was exciting. Kela, Danielle, Kristi, and Chris came over. We swam, ate pizza, played ddr and badminton, etc. Twas fun. Sadly, Kristi, Chris, and Danielle all left around 9:30 when they got there at like 7-7:30. That was kind of depressing. I did have a fun time though, and hope everyone else did too.
Now for potential whininess. For some reason, I have this paranoia that people don't like me and always talk about me behind my back. I mean, there are plenty of people who think everyone likes them when in actuality no one can stand them. They have no idea about this. I can't help but worry that I am one of them. Everytime I try to make plans or something, I'm always terrified they'll fall through. When my friends go out or something and don't invite me, I get incredibly upset. I know this is ridiculous, I can't be expected to get invited to everything, but I dunno. I have this thing where I'm so terrified no one likes me. I know that I have friends and I love them to death, but there's just this thing in the back of my head... For instance Kela's away message said something about something being disappointing and I feel like it was today at my house. I hate being paranoid!
Please note this is not for pity and I am not mad at anyone. This is my livejournal and I'm just expressing my emotions and frustration at this paranoia that I seem to have. This is my lj so if you don't like it you can sod off.
This summer has been so much fun so far and way better than last summer. I don't mean to be whiney, but I just feel so weird lately.
Sigh.