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[maybebaby87]

ok, i have mono and tonsilitus. i've spent a day and a half in the hospital. i have 8 holes in various places on my body where i have been stabbed by needles of various doctors. this has left me with big bruises all over my arms, hands, and legs. i can't walk, due to the fact that my throat is so swolen that i can't swallow, and as a result, can't eat. my mother and stepfather have to cary me up and down stairs and to the bathroom. i can't speak. i'm sorry if you've been calling my cell phone, but i can't answer it. i'm going to have to call all of the colleges that i am applying to to explain to them why i am going to have to change my audition dates. all of my medications have to be forced down my throat like i'm some kind of invilid. this makes me throw up what is in my stomach, which at the end of the day ends up being 17 different pills and some water. maybe a popcicle if i'm able to suck on anything. i haven't eaten in three days. i'm really, really, hungry. i've missed two days of school, and will probably miss three more. i've already missed two tests and a quiz. i'm never going to be able to make up all of the work that i'm going to miss on top of college applications. i'm developing a cough. when i cough, i can't stop for a period of about 5 minutes. generally, it makes me throw up again. tomorrow, my doctor will be delivering the steroids that will make my throat stop swelling ao i can begin to eat. i'm going to have to get my tonsils removed sometime in the spring, but i can't now, because it will screw up my vioce for college auditions. i miss my friends. none of them no that i am sick. this is in part because i cannot talk. my brother didn't believe that i was sick for a day and a half, and was very mad that i got to stay home and "fake it". he is a shithead. i have also developed a problem where i can't stop complaining. it has turned me into a whiny bitch.

someone please buy me a casket, i'm going to sleep.