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i don't know what happened to all my friends.
i'm either getting into fights with them or we barely talk at all.
the only person who calls me anymore is mike (and ryan).
and they really do make me laugh.
i don't know what i'd be doing without them.
i'm becoming more like my astrological sign, reserved.
i don't call people anymore and i've been a lot more angry than i used to be.
i'm not mad at anyone, i've either said something stupid or have nothing to say.
i can't really make a concious effort because i feel like i'm going to get backlashed or let down.
when i do go out, it's with sorina and the gang, and i'm really glad that they include me in things.
i don't have to impress anybody, it's just to have fun.
that keeps me sane in thinking that i'm not a complete screw-up in being a friend.
i've always felt that i had so many friends because they all needed advice at one time or another,
but at the end of the day that's it.
i don't really have a personality to speak of, just advice in my head.
i understand that things happen, people drift apart; i just didn't think it'd be so soon and all at the same time.
this will probably make going to ecuador easier, i don't have to say too many good-byes.
i don't mean to offend anyone, but these are the thoughts in my head.
i'm either getting into fights with them or we barely talk at all.
the only person who calls me anymore is mike (and ryan).
and they really do make me laugh.
i don't know what i'd be doing without them.
i'm becoming more like my astrological sign, reserved.
i don't call people anymore and i've been a lot more angry than i used to be.
i'm not mad at anyone, i've either said something stupid or have nothing to say.
i can't really make a concious effort because i feel like i'm going to get backlashed or let down.
when i do go out, it's with sorina and the gang, and i'm really glad that they include me in things.
i don't have to impress anybody, it's just to have fun.
that keeps me sane in thinking that i'm not a complete screw-up in being a friend.
i've always felt that i had so many friends because they all needed advice at one time or another,
but at the end of the day that's it.
i don't really have a personality to speak of, just advice in my head.
i understand that things happen, people drift apart; i just didn't think it'd be so soon and all at the same time.
this will probably make going to ecuador easier, i don't have to say too many good-byes.
i don't mean to offend anyone, but these are the thoughts in my head.