waking life.

[may_illusion]

i wake up but i'm not really awake. i look at the clock and i cant make out the numbers. its that same dream again. i tell myself to wake up. i wake up but i'm not really awake, or at least i dont think i am. i go to the light switch and turn it on and off...nothing happens. i try to force my eyes open. here we go again stuck in the dream within a dream dream. i repeat the process of waking myself up only to find that i'm not awake several times. i've had this reoccurring reoccurring dream a few other times but this time i decide not to freak out. this time i take full advantage of the fact that i know i can control it. so i make myself fly. it works for a few seconds and i levitate off my bed. then i repeat "james franco james franco" over and over. he appears and we make out. this dream used to scare me because i thought that i would never be able to wake up. this time i really didn't want to. i'm starting to really think about the movie Waking Life and the question it asks: "Are we sleep-walking through our waking state or wake-walking through our dreams?"

**post script**
totally off the subject but sophie is being a brat today. she attacked my face and bit my lip. what a jerk.