FUCKKEDDD UPP!!!!!!
Ok seriously...I feel like I have a load of things on my back. Everything keeps snowballing into a shit pile. All of this may not make sense. I am a little on the drunken/stoned side. But here it goes...
I have been working at spin for a MONTH now. Not that long yes but a month. Breanna (my bestest friend) started working there last weekend like 2 days. She has been working there for like 3 days now and my boss offers her a better job than I have. WHAT THE FUCK! Why dont I get it? What is the reasoning? Is it cuz she flirts with him? I thought yeah hes cute I could flirt but no I didnt do it cuz you shouldnt flirt with your manager. BUT she did. And look what she gets. FUCKKKKKk!!!!!
So this guy that I worked with, who recently quit, asked me to hang out tonight. He was a nice guy and what not so I thought what the hell ill hang out with him. So I go over there to hang out. Meet his roomate once again. Who also works at a club and and at spin sometimes. So his roomate goes to study and we end up watching a movie and drinking some beers. We end up just talking and drinking and having a good time. We also ended up kissing and making out a bit. Thats fine. I dont mind just making out. But this first time I hang out with someone I NEVER do more than make out. I dont think its right. Making out is innocent. Other stuff is not. So we just makg out. BUT his roomate ends up calling his friends over and now we are stuck in his room with people thinking that we are fucking or something. I normaly wouldnt care but one of the people ends up being a girl I work with. His roomate must have thought we were fucking or something. Told this girl and the girl walks in the apartment and goes..."Is Jesse done fucking that girl yet?" So im thinking what the fuck. Now supposively we are fucking and I work with this girl. And girls fucking talk. GAY. I left the apartment and she looks at me and goes "hheeeeyyy" in this gay weird voice. I go..."ok its not what you are thinking" just to verify and she says..."suuurreee, yeah ok." In this snotty ass fucking voice. SOOO OK SWEET. NOW APPARENTLY I JUST FUCKED SOME RANDOM GUY. SWEET. LIFE IS SWEET. THROWS ME ALL THE RIGHT THINGS. FUCKING LAME. This guy is a sweetheart. And is hot. Very hot. But thats all I def. DONT like this guy. I dont know what it is. It seems like I should. But I dont. SUCH A WEIRD SITUATION. Lets see how fast talk flys and how work will be on thursday. I think this kid really likes me though. Uhhh ooo. No good.
COOL THINGS...MORE DRAMA...Im fighting with my best friend. One of my best friends. Im actually fighting with him right now. About feelings. And junk. I must be a bad person. I feel so hated. I wish I could paste the things that are being said but I cant expose this person. That would be wrong or something. This is seriously fuckiing gay. So...this man...that I have been speaking of... I guess genuinely 100% cares about me/likes me. I care about him dearly. Im not used to guys really caring/liking me that much so maybe this is all so odd cuz im not USED to it?? I dont know. So I think maybe ill give it a chance? See what happens? I dont know...what do you think?
So much going on right now. So many thoughts in my head. Men are complicated. This is why I dont get involved with them much. The confuse the shit out of me. But its nice to know that someone cares for you.
Gahhh Im rambling now. I dont nkow what to do...or think...or say. I want annoyiness to go away. If thats even a word. Im pooped. Time for bed.
Things ALWAYS happen at the wrong times for me. Poop.
I have been working at spin for a MONTH now. Not that long yes but a month. Breanna (my bestest friend) started working there last weekend like 2 days. She has been working there for like 3 days now and my boss offers her a better job than I have. WHAT THE FUCK! Why dont I get it? What is the reasoning? Is it cuz she flirts with him? I thought yeah hes cute I could flirt but no I didnt do it cuz you shouldnt flirt with your manager. BUT she did. And look what she gets. FUCKKKKKk!!!!!
So this guy that I worked with, who recently quit, asked me to hang out tonight. He was a nice guy and what not so I thought what the hell ill hang out with him. So I go over there to hang out. Meet his roomate once again. Who also works at a club and and at spin sometimes. So his roomate goes to study and we end up watching a movie and drinking some beers. We end up just talking and drinking and having a good time. We also ended up kissing and making out a bit. Thats fine. I dont mind just making out. But this first time I hang out with someone I NEVER do more than make out. I dont think its right. Making out is innocent. Other stuff is not. So we just makg out. BUT his roomate ends up calling his friends over and now we are stuck in his room with people thinking that we are fucking or something. I normaly wouldnt care but one of the people ends up being a girl I work with. His roomate must have thought we were fucking or something. Told this girl and the girl walks in the apartment and goes..."Is Jesse done fucking that girl yet?" So im thinking what the fuck. Now supposively we are fucking and I work with this girl. And girls fucking talk. GAY. I left the apartment and she looks at me and goes "hheeeeyyy" in this gay weird voice. I go..."ok its not what you are thinking" just to verify and she says..."suuurreee, yeah ok." In this snotty ass fucking voice. SOOO OK SWEET. NOW APPARENTLY I JUST FUCKED SOME RANDOM GUY. SWEET. LIFE IS SWEET. THROWS ME ALL THE RIGHT THINGS. FUCKING LAME. This guy is a sweetheart. And is hot. Very hot. But thats all I def. DONT like this guy. I dont know what it is. It seems like I should. But I dont. SUCH A WEIRD SITUATION. Lets see how fast talk flys and how work will be on thursday. I think this kid really likes me though. Uhhh ooo. No good.
COOL THINGS...MORE DRAMA...Im fighting with my best friend. One of my best friends. Im actually fighting with him right now. About feelings. And junk. I must be a bad person. I feel so hated. I wish I could paste the things that are being said but I cant expose this person. That would be wrong or something. This is seriously fuckiing gay. So...this man...that I have been speaking of... I guess genuinely 100% cares about me/likes me. I care about him dearly. Im not used to guys really caring/liking me that much so maybe this is all so odd cuz im not USED to it?? I dont know. So I think maybe ill give it a chance? See what happens? I dont know...what do you think?
So much going on right now. So many thoughts in my head. Men are complicated. This is why I dont get involved with them much. The confuse the shit out of me. But its nice to know that someone cares for you.
Gahhh Im rambling now. I dont nkow what to do...or think...or say. I want annoyiness to go away. If thats even a word. Im pooped. Time for bed.
Things ALWAYS happen at the wrong times for me. Poop.