Alone I Stand

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Nothing but shame fills my soul till it over flows. I feel so stupid. I never intended all of this madness, and no body understands, how could they? I have had everything ripped from me... inside and out, and I still won't die. Everyone says I blame them... how is that possible when I blame no one but myself. How come its when ever you don't tell someone something and everyone else does that talking for you without your permission that your blaming them for what happened and then when you do tell everyone that something then your not blaming anyone?..... I'm lost...........

I'm done being sick.... I want it no more.....

I feel like this is the only place I can tell my secrets now... myspace has taken over and eveyone knows your life..... : ponders : hmm ......... : shrugs :

well I feel like I'm going to be sick for the 11th fucking time today... I'm tired of puking...... ='[