Everything is Illuminated
At first, I felt bad because I chose to stay home over break when I could have been doing something else. Something that would have no doubt helped someone very, very important to me feel better. I had this dilemma about where to draw the line between sacrificing my own comfort for someone i love and taking a break emotionally from it. I feel like I haven't had a break in a long time. I knew I was strong enough to put myself in that environment again, but that didn't make me any less scared of having to endure it for a second time. Then finally, Crockett says " There's nothing wrong with wanting to avoid getting hurt", and I realized he was right. So I'm home.
And everything is alright. Spring is here, despite my desires that winter would keep going. But I'm so happy anyway. The sun is out and I'm alone driving on the highway. I rolled down the windows and Track 18 comes on. And all the thoughts that run through my head at that moment make me smile and laugh at how lucky I am to have such a good life. I can't remember ever feeling as happy as I have been lately.
And why shouldn't I be? Everyone in my family is healthy and alive. My friends are truly the good kind others wish they had. I happen to be dating my best friend and the most amazing person I have ever met. I find that I'm pretty much always smiling and in good company. I've been laughing a lot with a lot of people. There's really nothing wrong or anything missing. As far as I can tell, there's so much to be excited about in the next few months. That's a good feeling.
"Sounds of laughter, here comes sunshine, smiling faces all around.
They possess you, bless you, sunshine, now you can never let them down, I say sunshine.
Things ain't what they used to be, pain and rain and misery.
Illness in the family and sunshine means a lot to me, I say sunshine.
Friends and lovers past and gone and no one waiting further on,
I'm running short of things to be and sunshine means quite a lot to me, I say sunshine
Sunshine, sunshine" -James Taylor
And everything is alright. Spring is here, despite my desires that winter would keep going. But I'm so happy anyway. The sun is out and I'm alone driving on the highway. I rolled down the windows and Track 18 comes on. And all the thoughts that run through my head at that moment make me smile and laugh at how lucky I am to have such a good life. I can't remember ever feeling as happy as I have been lately.
And why shouldn't I be? Everyone in my family is healthy and alive. My friends are truly the good kind others wish they had. I happen to be dating my best friend and the most amazing person I have ever met. I find that I'm pretty much always smiling and in good company. I've been laughing a lot with a lot of people. There's really nothing wrong or anything missing. As far as I can tell, there's so much to be excited about in the next few months. That's a good feeling.
"Sounds of laughter, here comes sunshine, smiling faces all around.
They possess you, bless you, sunshine, now you can never let them down, I say sunshine.
Things ain't what they used to be, pain and rain and misery.
Illness in the family and sunshine means a lot to me, I say sunshine.
Friends and lovers past and gone and no one waiting further on,
I'm running short of things to be and sunshine means quite a lot to me, I say sunshine
Sunshine, sunshine" -James Taylor