Hello Me, it's me again...
I'm still here and still existing. Yes, I'm still more prevalent in FB land, but as none of my family are on here this suffers as I'm trying to stay in touch with them. I still read through things on here when I have a few moments and I post when I have something long winded to say, but I find now that I quit the Cam that I rant a lot less. Even things that still mean a great deal to me don't get me near as angry. I find that to be a good thing over all, even though it means I write less.
Several things have become apparent to me in my life as of late. First... I am not happy doing what I'm doing. I was when I could sit along at night and run programs and work on projects on the side. But the hours were killing me and making me an ass to my family. I don't miss the hours, but I don't like the new job that they have tasked Bert and I with. I don't like talking on the phone, not after spending 4 years doing it for a living for Apple. Just don't want to do it anymore, but that is now my main job here at work. Yeah, I still get to fix computer that come in broken, but that is a side project type thing now and I'm primarily phone support. Time to find something and move on. The problem has become... what to do?
There are many things I can do for a living, but at 45 is that all I want anymore? To make a living? No, I need to find something to DO with my career, not just something to bring in a (paltry) paycheck. The books and gurus all say "Do what you love and the money will follow", but I no longer can tell you what I love. I WANT to get back to my art, but I still feel like I'm missing something when I try to create visually. I love writing, but that isn't something I can make a living at right away. Yes, I know I tell good stories, but writing is a lot like acting, just because you are good at it, does not mean you will succeed at it. Timing, dedication and finding the right avenues are just as, if not more, important than enjoying it or being good at it. My career choices if I follow that route are acting, 3D Animation and writing. Not solid grounds for a lifestyle, not with a kid still in High School.
So, once more those go back on the shelf and I look for the practical. I've been looking for computer building/repair as that I enjoy and I'm good at and I don't have to talk to people on the phone all the damned time. We'll see if anything pans out. Cat wants me to go back to school and refresh my 3D skills, we'll see. Not seeing a lot in the way of such classes that I can take right now so I guess I'm left to my own devices on that front.
Anyway, enough musing from the old guy. Back to the grindstone and making my paycheck and taking care of my family.
TTFN...
Several things have become apparent to me in my life as of late. First... I am not happy doing what I'm doing. I was when I could sit along at night and run programs and work on projects on the side. But the hours were killing me and making me an ass to my family. I don't miss the hours, but I don't like the new job that they have tasked Bert and I with. I don't like talking on the phone, not after spending 4 years doing it for a living for Apple. Just don't want to do it anymore, but that is now my main job here at work. Yeah, I still get to fix computer that come in broken, but that is a side project type thing now and I'm primarily phone support. Time to find something and move on. The problem has become... what to do?
There are many things I can do for a living, but at 45 is that all I want anymore? To make a living? No, I need to find something to DO with my career, not just something to bring in a (paltry) paycheck. The books and gurus all say "Do what you love and the money will follow", but I no longer can tell you what I love. I WANT to get back to my art, but I still feel like I'm missing something when I try to create visually. I love writing, but that isn't something I can make a living at right away. Yes, I know I tell good stories, but writing is a lot like acting, just because you are good at it, does not mean you will succeed at it. Timing, dedication and finding the right avenues are just as, if not more, important than enjoying it or being good at it. My career choices if I follow that route are acting, 3D Animation and writing. Not solid grounds for a lifestyle, not with a kid still in High School.
So, once more those go back on the shelf and I look for the practical. I've been looking for computer building/repair as that I enjoy and I'm good at and I don't have to talk to people on the phone all the damned time. We'll see if anything pans out. Cat wants me to go back to school and refresh my 3D skills, we'll see. Not seeing a lot in the way of such classes that I can take right now so I guess I'm left to my own devices on that front.
Anyway, enough musing from the old guy. Back to the grindstone and making my paycheck and taking care of my family.
TTFN...