Corey: 1, Ebola: 0
Outdoors is a deck full of teenagers aged 15 to 21. My sister is having a party for no apparent reason, but that's all well and good. Unlike my oldest sister who made a big deal to go out there and join in on the party, I'm staying inside with my Gus. He needs the company.
I miss Lori. alot. It's so foreign to go from spending a day with someone who understands you and grasps you without having to explain anything to her. I hope one day I can make her realize just how much of a miraculous feet that is and hopefully repay that debt to her. I'll never be able to understand how Kevin didn't find her marvelous... the very notion that someone can't appreciate how amazing she is frustrates me. Here's the girl who picks up the phone to call me, just as soon as I call her. She knows what I'm talking about or knows the answers to questions I haven't finished asking. Words can't express how brilliant her eyes look while I'm staring into them... staring deep down into her pupils like they're the endless sea of stars in space. I've always thought of myself as a bad astronaut who always turns left when it was probably better to turn right... but when it comes to Lori, I feel like I'm right on course. The very fact that I can only experience this comfort once a week is a pain, but always gives me something to look forward to.
Sometimes I forget that I'm alive. Allow me to elaborate. Sometimes, there are things in the world that absolutely stun me or fascinate me to the point that I forget that I am Corey Flanagan. I just stare off into space and think about how bizarre and strange existance is. For instance, somewhere, right now... someone is dying from blood loss. Do you think they're too stunned from whatever caused them to bleed that they don't think about their impending demise? Or are they stunned because they realize what's happening and they're thinking back on lost loves, past regrets, and everything else? On the other end of the spectrum, right now someone is realizing whatever is going on in their life is not what they want to be and are being reborn? I dunno, I think I think too much about things like that.
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I miss Lori. alot. It's so foreign to go from spending a day with someone who understands you and grasps you without having to explain anything to her. I hope one day I can make her realize just how much of a miraculous feet that is and hopefully repay that debt to her. I'll never be able to understand how Kevin didn't find her marvelous... the very notion that someone can't appreciate how amazing she is frustrates me. Here's the girl who picks up the phone to call me, just as soon as I call her. She knows what I'm talking about or knows the answers to questions I haven't finished asking. Words can't express how brilliant her eyes look while I'm staring into them... staring deep down into her pupils like they're the endless sea of stars in space. I've always thought of myself as a bad astronaut who always turns left when it was probably better to turn right... but when it comes to Lori, I feel like I'm right on course. The very fact that I can only experience this comfort once a week is a pain, but always gives me something to look forward to.
Sometimes I forget that I'm alive. Allow me to elaborate. Sometimes, there are things in the world that absolutely stun me or fascinate me to the point that I forget that I am Corey Flanagan. I just stare off into space and think about how bizarre and strange existance is. For instance, somewhere, right now... someone is dying from blood loss. Do you think they're too stunned from whatever caused them to bleed that they don't think about their impending demise? Or are they stunned because they realize what's happening and they're thinking back on lost loves, past regrets, and everything else? On the other end of the spectrum, right now someone is realizing whatever is going on in their life is not what they want to be and are being reborn? I dunno, I think I think too much about things like that.
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