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Title: My Heart, Your Hands
Author: Me --> maxwelldeamon
Pairing: This part - Quinn/Mikey, Bert/Gerard but not very much :( I promise it does become more pairing-central in the next part!
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Quinn and Mikey are getting close - what will Jeph say?!
A/N: Comments = ♥ and make me write more :hint: . Jeph’s POV.
Dedications: _bleedout_, usedchick07, maid_of_horror6 - ICON LOVE ♥ hehe, moody_delonge and astaria51 for being so cool and commenting on the first part!
Chapter 1.
I wake up abruptly, not sure what snapped me out of sleep. Glancing around the room I realise that the guys are already awake, out of bed and in the other room, and by the sounds of it, Mikey and Gerard are there too. I groan, deciding I’d better get up. I quickly pull on some jeans and a T-shirt, pausing, contemplating trying to fix my hair. Deciding against it, I make my way through to where the guys are.
Bert and Gerard are curled up on a chair kissing. Bert’s smiling and I can’t help smiling too, they make such a great couple. It’s nice that they have each other. I can see Quinn looking at them sadly. I guess that was what he was talking about last night. I’m once again filled with a desire to just hug him and stop the pain. He’s sitting on the couch and my stomach gives a horrible lurch when I notice how close Mikey is sitting to him. Mikey’s stealing glances at Quinn every few seconds and my chest tightens a bit more each time he does.
“Where’s Branden?” I ask, needing something to distract me from the look Mikey is giving Quinn.
“Kitchen, I think,” Quinn tells me. I thank him and make my way over, but I can’t help noticing that he’s caught Mikey’s eye and is smiling at him. It turns out Quinn was right, I do find Branden in the kitchen. He’s looking for something in the fridge but he hears me entering.
“Hey, how it going?” he asks me, without looking up.
“Eh,” I respond, throwing myself down on a chair.
“That good, hey? Wanna talk about it?” he asks me. Branden is my best friend in the band and usually I’d talk to him and it would help. But not this time.
“No. But thanks.” It’s not that I don’t want to. It’s that I’m not sure what I’d say and I’m not even sure what’s going on myself. It’s probably just me being stupid. I’ll get over it soon. Probably.
“No problem. If you change your mind-”
“Thanks,” I tell him, sincerely grateful that he hasn’t tried to press me into talking to him. I lose myself in thought for a while, sucking one of my lip rings into my mouth, like I always do when I’m thinking. I can’t keep my mind off Quinn. How sad he looked when he was sitting on my bed last night, how much I just wanted to hold him and make everything okay for him and how - I feel that jerk in my stomach again - how he was looking at Mikey just now.
“Coming?” Branden asks, apparently having given up his search. My stomach lurches but I agree. I wish I hadn’t as I walk in to see Mikey with his arm around Quinn’s shoulders.
I’m frozen in the doorway for a moment, trying not to believe the sight that’s in front of my eyes. I feel like my stomach is being ripped out as Quinn shifts towards Mikey so he’s leaning right into him. Quinn turns his head slightly and looks at me, grinning. His smile falters when my expression doesn’t change. He looks questioningly at me and I look away. When I dare to look back, his eyes are looking into Mikey’s.
I don’t know what to do. I should be happy for Quinn, this is what he wanted after all. This is what I wanted for him. But I’m not happy. I didn’t want this. I didn’t want him to be looking at Mikey like that. I wanted it to be me. I just want to grab Mikey by his shirt and throw him off the bus so I don’t have to be around him. Obviously I can’t do that, so I do the next best thing - I leave the bus. Predictably, Branden isn’t far behind me.
“Jeph?” he asks, waiting to see if I’m going to talk to him or yell for him to leave me alone. As much as I want to scream and take out my hurt on someone, I don’t want to be on my own.
“Yeah?” I respond, sitting down on the grass with my back to our bus. Branden sits down next to me. He endures my silence for about five minutes.
“Quinn?” he asks quietly. I’m a little shocked he’s arrived at the correct conclusion so quickly. I laugh bitterly.
“Is it that obvious?” I pause. “Don’t say it.”
“Why, what do you think I’m going to say?” he asks, sounding faintly amused.
“I’m not gonna talk to him,” I say. Branden sighs, so I know I got it right. “You’re so fucking predictable,” I tell him, answering the question he hasn’t asked yet.
“Only because you know you should,” he responds. I don’t say anything. I’m too busy trying to imagine how the conversation would go. ‘Hey, Quinn! You know how you wanted to be with someone? Well, you’ve got Mikey now and you look really happy. How about you break up with him because I’m a selfish bastard and don’t like to see you happy with someone who isn’t me. Yes, that’s right, I like you but of course I wouldn’t tell you that until you had someone else.’ Yeah right.
“Do you think he knows?” I ask, a worrying thought occurring to me. I mean, if Branden’s figured it out-
“No. Well, I think he’s picked up that something rattled you. You pretty much just ran off the bus for no reason. But no. I don’t think he knows,” he reassures me. I sigh.
“Come on, we’d better get back on the bus. Act normal and all that.” I say miserably, standing up and heading back. I feel Branden’s hand on my shoulder.
“Okay. But just for the record I still think-” I know very well that he still thinks. But he doesn’t manage to get the sentence out due to the fact I have him in a headlock. Typically, he starts screaming like a little girl so I let him go.
“Maybe,” I tell him as we head back to the bus in silence.
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Well, you asked me to continue, so here you go. Didn’t want to keep you waiting!
I don’t think this is very good, hope I haven’t disappointed. Next chapter should be better *fingers crossed*
More on the actual pairings next time, rather than just talking. Talking is good but manlove is better!
Thank you to everyone who commented on the last part <3 and to everyone who reads this part. Comment!! It makes me happy!
♥
Author: Me --> maxwelldeamon
Pairing: This part - Quinn/Mikey, Bert/Gerard but not very much :( I promise it does become more pairing-central in the next part!
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Quinn and Mikey are getting close - what will Jeph say?!
A/N: Comments = ♥ and make me write more :hint: . Jeph’s POV.
Dedications: _bleedout_, usedchick07, maid_of_horror6 - ICON LOVE ♥ hehe, moody_delonge and astaria51 for being so cool and commenting on the first part!
Chapter 1.
I wake up abruptly, not sure what snapped me out of sleep. Glancing around the room I realise that the guys are already awake, out of bed and in the other room, and by the sounds of it, Mikey and Gerard are there too. I groan, deciding I’d better get up. I quickly pull on some jeans and a T-shirt, pausing, contemplating trying to fix my hair. Deciding against it, I make my way through to where the guys are.
Bert and Gerard are curled up on a chair kissing. Bert’s smiling and I can’t help smiling too, they make such a great couple. It’s nice that they have each other. I can see Quinn looking at them sadly. I guess that was what he was talking about last night. I’m once again filled with a desire to just hug him and stop the pain. He’s sitting on the couch and my stomach gives a horrible lurch when I notice how close Mikey is sitting to him. Mikey’s stealing glances at Quinn every few seconds and my chest tightens a bit more each time he does.
“Where’s Branden?” I ask, needing something to distract me from the look Mikey is giving Quinn.
“Kitchen, I think,” Quinn tells me. I thank him and make my way over, but I can’t help noticing that he’s caught Mikey’s eye and is smiling at him. It turns out Quinn was right, I do find Branden in the kitchen. He’s looking for something in the fridge but he hears me entering.
“Hey, how it going?” he asks me, without looking up.
“Eh,” I respond, throwing myself down on a chair.
“That good, hey? Wanna talk about it?” he asks me. Branden is my best friend in the band and usually I’d talk to him and it would help. But not this time.
“No. But thanks.” It’s not that I don’t want to. It’s that I’m not sure what I’d say and I’m not even sure what’s going on myself. It’s probably just me being stupid. I’ll get over it soon. Probably.
“No problem. If you change your mind-”
“Thanks,” I tell him, sincerely grateful that he hasn’t tried to press me into talking to him. I lose myself in thought for a while, sucking one of my lip rings into my mouth, like I always do when I’m thinking. I can’t keep my mind off Quinn. How sad he looked when he was sitting on my bed last night, how much I just wanted to hold him and make everything okay for him and how - I feel that jerk in my stomach again - how he was looking at Mikey just now.
“Coming?” Branden asks, apparently having given up his search. My stomach lurches but I agree. I wish I hadn’t as I walk in to see Mikey with his arm around Quinn’s shoulders.
I’m frozen in the doorway for a moment, trying not to believe the sight that’s in front of my eyes. I feel like my stomach is being ripped out as Quinn shifts towards Mikey so he’s leaning right into him. Quinn turns his head slightly and looks at me, grinning. His smile falters when my expression doesn’t change. He looks questioningly at me and I look away. When I dare to look back, his eyes are looking into Mikey’s.
I don’t know what to do. I should be happy for Quinn, this is what he wanted after all. This is what I wanted for him. But I’m not happy. I didn’t want this. I didn’t want him to be looking at Mikey like that. I wanted it to be me. I just want to grab Mikey by his shirt and throw him off the bus so I don’t have to be around him. Obviously I can’t do that, so I do the next best thing - I leave the bus. Predictably, Branden isn’t far behind me.
“Jeph?” he asks, waiting to see if I’m going to talk to him or yell for him to leave me alone. As much as I want to scream and take out my hurt on someone, I don’t want to be on my own.
“Yeah?” I respond, sitting down on the grass with my back to our bus. Branden sits down next to me. He endures my silence for about five minutes.
“Quinn?” he asks quietly. I’m a little shocked he’s arrived at the correct conclusion so quickly. I laugh bitterly.
“Is it that obvious?” I pause. “Don’t say it.”
“Why, what do you think I’m going to say?” he asks, sounding faintly amused.
“I’m not gonna talk to him,” I say. Branden sighs, so I know I got it right. “You’re so fucking predictable,” I tell him, answering the question he hasn’t asked yet.
“Only because you know you should,” he responds. I don’t say anything. I’m too busy trying to imagine how the conversation would go. ‘Hey, Quinn! You know how you wanted to be with someone? Well, you’ve got Mikey now and you look really happy. How about you break up with him because I’m a selfish bastard and don’t like to see you happy with someone who isn’t me. Yes, that’s right, I like you but of course I wouldn’t tell you that until you had someone else.’ Yeah right.
“Do you think he knows?” I ask, a worrying thought occurring to me. I mean, if Branden’s figured it out-
“No. Well, I think he’s picked up that something rattled you. You pretty much just ran off the bus for no reason. But no. I don’t think he knows,” he reassures me. I sigh.
“Come on, we’d better get back on the bus. Act normal and all that.” I say miserably, standing up and heading back. I feel Branden’s hand on my shoulder.
“Okay. But just for the record I still think-” I know very well that he still thinks. But he doesn’t manage to get the sentence out due to the fact I have him in a headlock. Typically, he starts screaming like a little girl so I let him go.
“Maybe,” I tell him as we head back to the bus in silence.
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Well, you asked me to continue, so here you go. Didn’t want to keep you waiting!
I don’t think this is very good, hope I haven’t disappointed. Next chapter should be better *fingers crossed*
More on the actual pairings next time, rather than just talking. Talking is good but manlove is better!
Thank you to everyone who commented on the last part <3 and to everyone who reads this part. Comment!! It makes me happy!
♥