many men cannot sleep in the room with the baby for this very reason. circumstances led us to frustration and pent up anger, both of us. in a new situation i did not react well to giving up any parenting. you weren't okay with yourself and all of your needs (i wasn't ok either), compassion was out of the question. i left portland with the man i loved but he changed during our trip, burdoned with responsibility in fashions not quite expected. i wanted to tell you that i had her taken care of, i had responsiblity as a favor, to relieve you but i think that offended you too. simultaneously i needed support in colorado due to overwhelming.
it was a mess. i couldn't stay.
i know you aren't as angry as a person as you had become this summer. in my heart of hearts i feel that you reacted poorly to stress, that your anger is not my fault. there were times when i was far from helping, though.
i don't really want to be with anyone right now. i want to be your friend and penpal again. i do feel a companionship with you whether or not we're romantically involved.
many men cannot sleep in the room with the baby for this very reason. circumstances led us to frustration and pent up anger, both of us. in a new situation i did not react well to giving up any parenting. you weren't okay with yourself and all of your needs (i wasn't ok either), compassion was out of the question. i left portland with the man i loved but he changed during our trip, burdoned with responsibility in fashions not quite expected. i wanted to tell you that i had her taken care of, i had responsiblity as a favor, to relieve you but i think that offended you too. simultaneously i needed support in colorado due to overwhelming.
it was a mess. i couldn't stay.
i know you aren't as angry as a person as you had become this summer. in my heart of hearts i feel that you reacted poorly to stress, that your anger is not my fault. there were times when i was far from helping, though.
i don't really want to be with anyone right now. i want to be your friend and penpal again. i do feel a companionship with you whether or not we're romantically involved.
i love your spirit.
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