[FanFic] I'ld Bleed To Let You Live
Pairing: BFF! Eetuek/Heechul; Broken! Heechul/Hankyung; Broken!Eetuek/Kangin
Rating: PG 13
Genre: Bromance//Angst
Summary: They protect each other to convince themselves that, one day everything is going to be okay.
JUNGSU;
To Super Junior, he is their leader, their hero, their gaurdian angel,
their pillar of support, their guiding light, the binding force thats keeps
them together, kept them together and will always keep them together.
But to Heechul, he's breaking (broken), cracked, weak, tired and
helpless. Heechul's never around him, but he's always with him.
(because it fucking hurts when people are around you, but not with you)
Heechul doesn't say much; he's only all talk around cameras and other celebrities;
because, he mostly observes, notices,feels
He doesn't say much to Jungsu; words don't seem to leave an impact on him;
Not anymore, atleast. He's learnt to bury himself deep enough for him to believe
there is no Jungsu; and he's learnt it well Heechul thinks as he watches the
the other man running from schedule to schedule.
Of course it bothers Heechul to know there is nothing he can do;
Nothing what -so- ever.
(it kills him because there has -has- to be something, he should do)
He's seen Jungsu bleeding and crying; he's felt it, through the silence they
often share when the two of them are alone; he's heard Jungsu's soul crying
and heart bleeding.
It is of no surprise when he hears a spark of hope in Jungsu's voice, when the
latter talks to Youngwoon, once every month. They don't talk for long; just long
enough to exchange formalities and enough for Youngwoon to ask about the group
and it's activities.
(But Heechul knows, Youngwoon's voice is enough for Jungsu to remain sane for the
next month)
He sighs and reclines back into his chair, lazily twirling a pen inbetween his fingers
he tells himself everything would be alright and that a day would come when they
would be full again.
He tells himself that.
(Because he fucking doesn't believe it.)
HEECHUL;
Heechul was always Heechul to Jungsu, never the Kim Heechul; because
that man was fake and plastic and if Heechul was anything, he was real
and warm.
Jungsu knew him, knew him like the back of his hand; reading him was
the first thing Jungsu had learnt after becoming a Super Junior and it had come off
relatively easy, because Heechul always acted difficult.
Jungsu didn't need his leader senses to tingle to figure out Heechul was
hurting; because he felt it too. He saw the pain in Heechul's eyes, through
his shades, through the heavy make up, through the hard exterior,
Heechul was hurting. And dying, at a slow, painful, miserable rate; he was
dying.
Jungsu could never say much to the other, he would hardly listen;
Kim Heechul doesn't listen, Kim Heechul orders
Jungsu never tried to say much either; because (he knew) the truth always
hurts, kills, destroys and then slowly dies away. It was of no use, anyway.
He would usually smile at Heechul, pat his back lovingly, squeeze his hand,
hug him, message him, call him, irritate him. He would always gain a frown,
or curse thrown at him carelessly.
(But Jungsu doesn't mind, at least he knows Heechul is alive.)
Jungsu hated it when their manager announced about SJ-M's comeback;
their comeback as eight members; two to replace one. Him.
Them coming back with just two Chinese members and not three, like how
Heechul always wanted it to be.
Heechul doesn't say anything, of course he doesn't say anything.
Jungsu knew he wouldn't; but he saw something break; something
like a hope; a spark Heechul was waiting for, something that Heechul never wanted
to lose hope in, something(one) he missed.
Jungsu watches him wish the two new members of the sub group; encourages
them and cheers for them and slowly retreats to his room. (The one he shared
with Hankyung)
Jungsu wants to go in; wants to wipe away the tears and fix him up properly;
coax him into believing everything would be the same again and one day they
would be full again.
Jungsu tells himself that.
(Because he fucking doesn't believe it.)
-
My 'if you must know's
- TEARING YOUR OTP APART IS SO MUCH FUN. /guilty pleasure♥
- I was so low on my Super Junior creativity and then I read a KyuSung by
domolovesyou and this came about. I don't know how. >__>
- This is vague and I have many grammatical errors, feel free to criticise me.
- /sobs WHY DID BARNEY AND ROBIN BREAK UP?? THEY WERE PERFECT TOGETHER ):
- I NEED TO TEAR MANY OF MY OTPS NOW (:
- I NEED TO SLEEP.
- I WANT CHOCOLATES.
- I SHOULD STOP THIS.
- HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY YOU LOT!♥
Rating: PG 13
Genre: Bromance//Angst
Summary: They protect each other to convince themselves that, one day everything is going to be okay.
JUNGSU;
To Super Junior, he is their leader, their hero, their gaurdian angel,
their pillar of support, their guiding light, the binding force thats keeps
them together, kept them together and will always keep them together.
But to Heechul, he's breaking (broken), cracked, weak, tired and
helpless. Heechul's never around him, but he's always with him.
(because it fucking hurts when people are around you, but not with you)
Heechul doesn't say much; he's only all talk around cameras and other celebrities;
because, he mostly observes, notices,feels
He doesn't say much to Jungsu; words don't seem to leave an impact on him;
Not anymore, atleast. He's learnt to bury himself deep enough for him to believe
there is no Jungsu; and he's learnt it well Heechul thinks as he watches the
the other man running from schedule to schedule.
Of course it bothers Heechul to know there is nothing he can do;
Nothing what -so- ever.
(it kills him because there has -has- to be something, he should do)
He's seen Jungsu bleeding and crying; he's felt it, through the silence they
often share when the two of them are alone; he's heard Jungsu's soul crying
and heart bleeding.
It is of no surprise when he hears a spark of hope in Jungsu's voice, when the
latter talks to Youngwoon, once every month. They don't talk for long; just long
enough to exchange formalities and enough for Youngwoon to ask about the group
and it's activities.
(But Heechul knows, Youngwoon's voice is enough for Jungsu to remain sane for the
next month)
He sighs and reclines back into his chair, lazily twirling a pen inbetween his fingers
he tells himself everything would be alright and that a day would come when they
would be full again.
He tells himself that.
(Because he fucking doesn't believe it.)
HEECHUL;
Heechul was always Heechul to Jungsu, never the Kim Heechul; because
that man was fake and plastic and if Heechul was anything, he was real
and warm.
Jungsu knew him, knew him like the back of his hand; reading him was
the first thing Jungsu had learnt after becoming a Super Junior and it had come off
relatively easy, because Heechul always acted difficult.
Jungsu didn't need his leader senses to tingle to figure out Heechul was
hurting; because he felt it too. He saw the pain in Heechul's eyes, through
his shades, through the heavy make up, through the hard exterior,
Heechul was hurting. And dying, at a slow, painful, miserable rate; he was
dying.
Jungsu could never say much to the other, he would hardly listen;
Kim Heechul doesn't listen, Kim Heechul orders
Jungsu never tried to say much either; because (he knew) the truth always
hurts, kills, destroys and then slowly dies away. It was of no use, anyway.
He would usually smile at Heechul, pat his back lovingly, squeeze his hand,
hug him, message him, call him, irritate him. He would always gain a frown,
or curse thrown at him carelessly.
(But Jungsu doesn't mind, at least he knows Heechul is alive.)
Jungsu hated it when their manager announced about SJ-M's comeback;
their comeback as eight members; two to replace one. Him.
Them coming back with just two Chinese members and not three, like how
Heechul always wanted it to be.
Heechul doesn't say anything, of course he doesn't say anything.
Jungsu knew he wouldn't; but he saw something break; something
like a hope; a spark Heechul was waiting for, something that Heechul never wanted
to lose hope in, something(one) he missed.
Jungsu watches him wish the two new members of the sub group; encourages
them and cheers for them and slowly retreats to his room. (The one he shared
with Hankyung)
Jungsu wants to go in; wants to wipe away the tears and fix him up properly;
coax him into believing everything would be the same again and one day they
would be full again.
Jungsu tells himself that.
(Because he fucking doesn't believe it.)
-
My 'if you must know's
- TEARING YOUR OTP APART IS SO MUCH FUN. /guilty pleasure♥
- I was so low on my Super Junior creativity and then I read a KyuSung by
domolovesyou and this came about. I don't know how. >__>
- This is vague and I have many grammatical errors, feel free to criticise me.
- /sobs WHY DID BARNEY AND ROBIN BREAK UP?? THEY WERE PERFECT TOGETHER ):
- I NEED TO TEAR MANY OF MY OTPS NOW (:
- I NEED TO SLEEP.
- I WANT CHOCOLATES.
- I SHOULD STOP THIS.
- HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY YOU LOT!♥