here in this diary i write you visions of my summer...it was the best i ever had...
So this is what it comes down to. My final day in Connecticut. After 18 years in this state, 11 years at Hamden Hall, and 4 years in this house, it's time to pack up and move on. On to what--? Even I don't know the answer at this point. On to Cambridge. On to Harvard. On to the future. Whatever that means.
I'm going to miss a lot of people. My family. All of the people that have stood by me throughout high school...and especially the ones who have stuck with me since lower school. People I've just met this summer. Everyone.
So, tomorrow morning I'm leaving bright & early...probably around 9:30 or so. Gah, too early. And today...I'm in limbo. Finishing up everything at home. Getting ready to leave. It's eerie, in a way. Rather indescribable. This whole process is something that I can barely put into words...from March Break of my Junior Year and those first college visits to Acceptance Letters to Graduation to...well, now. Leaving. It's still the microscopic germ of an idea that's just beginning to form. It's like succession, maybe.(?) First come the lichens to prime the rock...then the mosses and small non-vascular plants...then ferns and shrubs...then multiple generations of forest. (Only a biologist would think of getting a perspective on the last year of your life as an ecological process...) But in a way...you get distinct new patches of understanding that add and grow and make your understanding different over a period of time. Succession of ideas.
The computer is going away. Now, actually. It's going into the laptop case with the A/C adaptor, and then I'm putting it downstairs in the living room with the rest of my mess. Urgh, that's the big project of the day. Organize *the mess* so that it can easily and neatly be packed into the car by my parents next Saturday. So, anywho, I won't be around to receive eMails, talk via IM, or post/reply to comments on my LJ until September 6th. And since I'll be somewhere in the wilderness of New England, I will not have a cell phone either. Can you stand it? 6 whole days without hearing from me. GASP! Haha, you'll make it, dearies. I promise.
LJ changes are effective immediately. If I took you off my friends list, kindly do the same. If you want to be re-added or I never added you in the first place (a possibility for those who added me this summer), comment or send an eMail to jjcarpen@fas.harvard.edu. I'll put you right back on. (maybe...muhahaha!) Ah, and now I can follow the cliche and say: FRIENDS ONLY, SLUTS. xxxxx
Stay in touch. Please. Come up and visit me. I'll miss you all...
"This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper." - T.S. Eliot
I'm going to miss a lot of people. My family. All of the people that have stood by me throughout high school...and especially the ones who have stuck with me since lower school. People I've just met this summer. Everyone.
So, tomorrow morning I'm leaving bright & early...probably around 9:30 or so. Gah, too early. And today...I'm in limbo. Finishing up everything at home. Getting ready to leave. It's eerie, in a way. Rather indescribable. This whole process is something that I can barely put into words...from March Break of my Junior Year and those first college visits to Acceptance Letters to Graduation to...well, now. Leaving. It's still the microscopic germ of an idea that's just beginning to form. It's like succession, maybe.(?) First come the lichens to prime the rock...then the mosses and small non-vascular plants...then ferns and shrubs...then multiple generations of forest. (Only a biologist would think of getting a perspective on the last year of your life as an ecological process...) But in a way...you get distinct new patches of understanding that add and grow and make your understanding different over a period of time. Succession of ideas.
The computer is going away. Now, actually. It's going into the laptop case with the A/C adaptor, and then I'm putting it downstairs in the living room with the rest of my mess. Urgh, that's the big project of the day. Organize *the mess* so that it can easily and neatly be packed into the car by my parents next Saturday. So, anywho, I won't be around to receive eMails, talk via IM, or post/reply to comments on my LJ until September 6th. And since I'll be somewhere in the wilderness of New England, I will not have a cell phone either. Can you stand it? 6 whole days without hearing from me. GASP! Haha, you'll make it, dearies. I promise.
LJ changes are effective immediately. If I took you off my friends list, kindly do the same. If you want to be re-added or I never added you in the first place (a possibility for those who added me this summer), comment or send an eMail to jjcarpen@fas.harvard.edu. I'll put you right back on. (maybe...muhahaha!) Ah, and now I can follow the cliche and say: FRIENDS ONLY, SLUTS. xxxxx
Stay in touch. Please. Come up and visit me. I'll miss you all...
"This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper." - T.S. Eliot