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You Are 18 Years Old
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
What Age Do You Act?
This one is pretty accurate as these things go. I've felt disconnected from my real age since I was about 8 years old. As a child, I had what I would later hear call an "old soul". It's not that I couldn't or didn't play (though I was unusually somber or serious), or that I didn't have my moments of childishness every day. My awareness of my mortality may have played a role, but that wasn't the key to it. It wasn't maturity. I never really had that, though some people mistakenly saw that in me. I think it was simply that I didn't feel like a child. I had no patience for the childhood I was stuck in. It felt like the world was conspiring to keep me in this nightmarish (to me) fairy tale land. It wasn't real. Even worse, it was a barrier to reality. I didn't even want cartoons on my lunch box. I was thrilled when I got a solid black "grown-up" lunch box. The stereotypical, curved top one that the construction workers use in cartoons and commercials.
It was a terrible dissapoint to me to figure out that the illusions and fantasies didn't end w. childhood. I let go of some of the trappings of being a grown-up. I learned to skip and play w.out the self-consciousness I had as a child. Though I like to think I matured in other areas. At the same time, because of the mistakes I've made in my life I've missed out on some of the stages in life that most of us go through. I've consciously rejected the intellectual/spiritual/emotional ossification that seems to set in with age. I've sometimes even forgotten my own age (that story later).
There is a downside to being 'young at heart'. My attraction to younger women goes beyond the usual, mostly physical attraction. I tend not to feel a connection w. most women my age. Not those who 'act' their age anyway. Considering how many women go for older men you'd think I'd be set. But I am not attracted to those type, nor are they usually attracted to me. I don't have the traits that they look for in an older man, and that's not the role I want to play. Yet w. the others I come up against the barrier that I am, in fact, old. May be nothing but a number, but it's one of the first things people ask for and most people can't get around it. Doesn't help that I refuse to lie about it.
Time for me to try making my first poll on this.
So this all begs the question: How old do you think I really am? Time for my first poll.
Poll Age Poll
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