and so it begins....
i really cant believe im awake....and making an online journal. i guess, maybe, itll be a good thing in the long run? maybe this will let me open my head a little, who knows. ive always been pretty bad at expressing my thoughts and/or feelings. in a good way, anyway. hmmm...i hate being up this early, not having gone to bed yet. it feels like theres no one else awake in the entire world...very lonely. i wonder if everyones experienced this. it happens to me quite a bit. my sleep schedule is so messed up from working latenights...dont get home till 2 or 3am, im still wired at that point b/c i drank so many red bulls to keep energized at work. i end up on the computer or watching tv till 5am. so then, i just figure it'll be easier to stay up ALL night so i can have all day to get my errands done. im always in a bad mood the next day, ud think i wouldve learned by now?? feeling lonely sucks. especially since im living alone right now. at work, life is great, since im always busy and 2 of my best friends work with me. its usually always fun there. but, when i come home...its quiet, kinda makes me wish i had annoying neighbors again just so i knew that humanity still existed. wait, no...i swear they made me suicidal....but u get the point. i guess i should live up the fact that i dont have a roommate...finally have some damn privacy. just me and my 2 kitties :) wow, i ramble alot....who does that? honestly? its starting to get light out now....yay! cant wait to get out there on the streets with all the dumb ass drivers. people freak out the moment they see snow...and start driving like idiots. slow in the summer when the roads r actually clear, fast and on ur ass in the winter when u cant see 5 feet in front of u. i'll never understand. well, im gonna go twiddle my thumbs for a bit longer...i'll write more when i get to it...PEACE!