Hate you, love you
Title: Hate you, love you
Pairing: Haehyuk
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Angst, smut, romance
Warnings: Cursing, violence, sex, mpreg
Summary: Donghae goes to the bar every night and doesn't care about what Hyukjae feels. When he realizes that he would lost the one he loves he promises to change his ways.
Hyukjae is laying his and Donghae's bed alone. It's already a midnight but Donghae hasn't came home yet. He is at bar again and Hyukjae knows it. It has been like this for quite a long time. But Hyukjae accepts it. He has already used to life like this.
FLASHBACK
"Good night Hyukkie." His mom says and kisses his forehead before leaving. When his mom is about to close his door Hyukjae talks. "Mommy where's daddy?" His mother stiffens and looks Hyukjae. "Mommy where he is? Have you fought again?" His mom walks back and sits to his bed. "No Hyukkie it's not that. Daddy has work to do." Hyukjae looks at his mom with his big brown eyes and bites his lower lip. "Mommy...when you and daddy are fighting..is it because of me? I can be a good boy! I can.."
Hyukjae's mom hugs him and strokes his hair. "No. No baby it's not because of you. You said you can be a good boy? Then be a good boy and sleep ow dear." Hyukjae nods his head and kisses his mom's cheek. "I love you mommy." His mom smiles. "I love you too Hyukjae. Now sleep."
Hyukjae dives under his blanket and is ready to fall a sleep. His mom walks to the door and before closing the door she looks at Hyukjae and sighs.
♫♪♫
Hyukjae wakes up when he hears a noises from downstairs. "Daddy?" Hyukjae hops to the floor and starts to slowly walk to the door. He hears shouts and cries from the other side of the door and he hesitates to open it.
"You fucking slut! Without you my life would be perfect!" Hearing that Hyukjae opens the door a little and he sees how his mother is crying on the floor. "You are only burden! Always whining money which we don't have! Hyukjae's mother stands up and yells "We would have money if you wouldn't drink all of them!"
Hyukjae sees how his father's hand rises and lands to his mother's cheek. "Shut the fuck of woman! You don't know anything!" Hyukjae's mother is crying on the floor.
Hyukjae can't see his mother crying so he rushes to hug his mother. "Hyukjae what are you doing? Run to your room right now! Go back! Run!" but before he can run back to his room his father grabs his hand. Hyukjae tries to struggle but his father's grip is too strong.
Then for the first time in his life Hyukjae feels slap on his cheek. "You are as much burden as your whore mother! Five years. Five years I have been combined to you. You have stolen five years of my life kid!"
before Hyukjae can do anything his mother has grabbed him to her embrace. She runs out of house to the neighbor and calls a police.
When the polices come Hyukjae watches how they take his father away. And that's the last time he saw his father.
END OF FLASHBACK
Hyukjae snaps out of his thoughts when he hears a voices coming from the corridor. He sighs before he stands up and walks to the corridor. He sees how Donghae tries to get his shoes off but fails. "You need help?" Donghae raises his head when he hears Hyukjae's voice. "Hyukkie? What are you doing? I..I thought that you're sleeping." Donghae's voice slurs exactly the same way how Hyukjae's father's did.
Hyukjae ignores the pain inside him and walks to help Donghae. When he tries to help him Donghae pushes his hand away. "I don't need your help. Go away." Hyukjae fights against the tears but he knows that he can't win so he turns and walks to the kitchen.
He cries silently when he listens all the cursing coming from the other room. He doesn't notice that Donghae comes to the kitchen and looks at him. "What are you crying? You ar such a cry baby Hyukkie. Do we have anything to drink?"
Dongahe opens a fridge and takes a bottle of soju. When he is about to open it Hyukjae grabs his hand and takes the bottle away from him. "What are you doing! Give it to me Hyukkie!" "NO! You have drank enough already!"
Donghae is getting angry. How Hyukjae can say him that he has already drank enough? "Give me that damn soju Hyukjae!" Hyukjae just shakes his head. "No Hae. You have drank enough. You go somewhere every evening. Every night I wait for you coming back but you come home later and later every night. You sleep when I'm going to work and when I come home from work you have left. So no I don't give you this bottle."
Donghae looks his boyfriend before talking. "Fine. if you don't give me that bottle then I'm leaving. Good night Hyukjae." "No Hae. Your not the one who is leaving. It's me and I'm not leaving alone." Donghae doesn't understand what Hyukjae is talking about. "Not alone? What are you talking about? If you are saying that you have someone else I swear.." Hyukjae shakes his head again. "No Hae I don't have anyone else. I meant that I'm pregnant. And when I leave our baby leaves with me. And after that you won't ever see us."
Donghae stares Hyukjae. He has lost his words. Hyukjae is pregnant. And his the father. Suddenly Donghae feels that he is the most horrible man in the world. "You...you are..pregnant." He asks and when he sees Hyukjae nodding he can't tell how happy he is. Hyukjae is pregnat! And his the father! He is going to be a dad!
Huge smile forms to his face and he hugs Hyukjae. "Oh my god Hyukjae! I...I..I don't know what to say. I love you so much! Please forgive me. I will change. I won't go to bars anymore or drink or..." Hyukjae silences him on his finger. "Hush Hae. I love you so much that it hurts. I can't live without you. Please don't do this again ever. Don't ingore me or hurt me. Please."
Donghae smiles and kisses Hyukjae. Slowly their kiss turns more intimate and Hyukjae moves his hands around Donghae's neck while Donghae's hands find their way to Hyukjae's waist. When they break the kiss Hyukjae sees Donghae's smirk. "I guess I have to make up all these nights you have been alone." With that he lifts Hyukjae and walks them to their bedroom.
♫♪♫
"Nghh Hae.." Hyukjae moans when Donghae licks his nipple. First he gives it couple of firm licks but when Donghae hears Hyukjae's moans he gets impatient. He takes the nipple between his teeth and pulls it a little making Hyukjae whimper due to pain. "Ahh Hae. Ple-please.."
Donghae smirks against Hyukjae chest. His baby is impatient today. Ever since Donghae brought them to bedroom Hyukjae has been begging him. But no, Hae doesn't want to give up yet. He wants to play with his cute little boyfriend before.
Donghae licks his way to Hyukjae's bellybutton and licks it. "Mmhh Hae..don't tease me." Donghae gives Hyukjae kiss. "But baby I'm not teasing you." Hyukjae rolls his eyes when he sees his stupid boyfriend looking him with those brown eyes. "Yes you are. And I don't like it."
Hyukjae changes their position so his top of Donghae. He roams his fingers around his boyfriend's well build chest before slipping them inside Donghae's boxers. "Ahh Hyukkie!" Hyukjae looks Donghae with innocent eyes and asks "What is it honey?" "You know so well. Suck me baby. Make me wett."
Hyukjae moans because of Donghae's words. He tears Donghae's boxers away and moves his position so his facing Donghae's cock. He strokes it couple of times before giving it a lick. "Nhh Hyukkie" Donghae grabs his hand around Hyukjae's hair and tries to thrust his hips upwards but Hyukjae pushes his hips back to the mattress.
Hyukjae takes Donghae's whole member inside his mouth. "Oh yes Hyukjae! Yes just like that ahhh!" Hyukjae starts to deep-throating Donghae making Donghae moaning mess.
When Donghae feels that he is close he pulls Hyukjae off from his cock and kisses him madly. "Where's the lube baby?" Donghae asks and fondles Hyukjae's ass cheeks. "Ahh I don't..ngh..I think that we don't ahh have." Donghae doesn't know what to do. He doesn't want to hurt his baby with rough sex but it isn't possible without lube. He looks Hyukjae and he feels how his member twitch. Hyukjae is sitting in his lap and sucking his own fingers. "Hy-hyukkie what are you doing?"
Hyukjae leans over so his lips are almost touching Donghae's and he whispers. "Can't you see? I'm sucking my fingers." With that he pushes two of them inside his entrance and moans loudly. Donghae swears that he could have come in that moment. Hyukjae on his lap, eyes closed and lips parted pleasuring himself.
"Hae! Ohh Hae please fuck me. AHH PLEASE!" Donghae couldn't take it anymore. He tears Hyukjae's finger off from his entrance and positions Hyukjae to his member. After this he grabs his hands to Hyukjae's hips and slams him down to his erection. Hyukjae screams when he feels Donghae's member sliding inside him.
They stay a still event thought Donghae wants to ram his cock hard and fast inside his lover he can't. He has wounded him already too much. "Ahh Hyuk...move" Hyukjae does what Donghae says and starts to move his hips up and down slowly.
Hyukjae fastens his speed and is soon bouncing on Donghae's cock. Hyukjae moves his hand to Donghae's back and scratches it with his fingers. Donghae winces little due to pain but he doesn't care. It actually turns him on more.
"AHHH Hae! There ohh!" Donghae smirks. Finally it's found. Donghae moves their position so his top of Hyukjae. He lifts Hyukjae's legs to his shoulders and starts to pistoning in and out of Hyukjae's hole. "AHH! HAE THERE! Please!" Donghae kisses Hyukjae before asking what he wants. "Please Hae! Touch me!"
Donghae gladly obey and starts to stroke Hyukjae's member. With double simulation Hyukjae can feel that he will cum soon. "Hae I..ahh..I'm coming." "Come for me baby."
After couple of hard thrusts Hyukjae cums between his and Donghae's bodys with a loud moan. Donghae throws his head back when he feels his lovers entrance squish his cock. He cums inside Hyukjae's entrance and keeps thrusting until he collapses top of Hyukjae. "Ahh Hae remember the baby."
Donghae's eyes widen in shock and he quickly pulls himself out of Hyukjae and lays beside him. "I'm sorry baby. Did I hurt you." Hyukjae laughs when he sees Donghae speaking to his tummy. "Don't worry Hae. Baby is alright." Donghae smiles and kisses Hyukjae's lips. "How about my other baby. Is he okay?"
Hyukjae rests his head to Donghae's chest and plays with Donghae's fingers. "He is fine too Hae. He was hurt before but now he is fine because he knows that you love him. And I love you too Hae."
Tears form in Donghae's eyes when he hears Hyukjae words. "I'm so sorry Hyukkie. I'm so sorry for making you suffer. From now on I will take care of you and our babies." Hyukjae raises his head and looks Donghae. "Babies? We're not getting twins Hae. Just one baby." "I know but I want a lot of babies with you. Making them is so so fun."
Hyukjae blushes because of Donghaes words. "Argh I hate you!" He yells and turns around so his back is facing Donghae. "WHAT? No you can't hate me! I know you love me. And I also know that you love making babies." When Donghae tries to hug Hyukjae, Hyukjae kicks him out of bed. "Awww baby that hurt." "Shut up I'm trying to sleep. And no don't try to climb back to the bed. You are sleeping on a couch tonight"
Donghae doesn't have any other option than to obey and try to sleep on a cold and uncomfortable couch. "Damn those hormones!"
A/N: Okay I have 4 words to say: I hate this fic >__>. This almost killed me D: I have write this hmmm let me think...2 weeks? I know. Long time, right? And that smut scene...yuck >__>. Anyway thanks for comments and reading everybody ♥
Pairing: Haehyuk
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Angst, smut, romance
Warnings: Cursing, violence, sex, mpreg
Summary: Donghae goes to the bar every night and doesn't care about what Hyukjae feels. When he realizes that he would lost the one he loves he promises to change his ways.
Hyukjae is laying his and Donghae's bed alone. It's already a midnight but Donghae hasn't came home yet. He is at bar again and Hyukjae knows it. It has been like this for quite a long time. But Hyukjae accepts it. He has already used to life like this.
FLASHBACK
"Good night Hyukkie." His mom says and kisses his forehead before leaving. When his mom is about to close his door Hyukjae talks. "Mommy where's daddy?" His mother stiffens and looks Hyukjae. "Mommy where he is? Have you fought again?" His mom walks back and sits to his bed. "No Hyukkie it's not that. Daddy has work to do." Hyukjae looks at his mom with his big brown eyes and bites his lower lip. "Mommy...when you and daddy are fighting..is it because of me? I can be a good boy! I can.."
Hyukjae's mom hugs him and strokes his hair. "No. No baby it's not because of you. You said you can be a good boy? Then be a good boy and sleep ow dear." Hyukjae nods his head and kisses his mom's cheek. "I love you mommy." His mom smiles. "I love you too Hyukjae. Now sleep."
Hyukjae dives under his blanket and is ready to fall a sleep. His mom walks to the door and before closing the door she looks at Hyukjae and sighs.
♫♪♫
Hyukjae wakes up when he hears a noises from downstairs. "Daddy?" Hyukjae hops to the floor and starts to slowly walk to the door. He hears shouts and cries from the other side of the door and he hesitates to open it.
"You fucking slut! Without you my life would be perfect!" Hearing that Hyukjae opens the door a little and he sees how his mother is crying on the floor. "You are only burden! Always whining money which we don't have! Hyukjae's mother stands up and yells "We would have money if you wouldn't drink all of them!"
Hyukjae sees how his father's hand rises and lands to his mother's cheek. "Shut the fuck of woman! You don't know anything!" Hyukjae's mother is crying on the floor.
Hyukjae can't see his mother crying so he rushes to hug his mother. "Hyukjae what are you doing? Run to your room right now! Go back! Run!" but before he can run back to his room his father grabs his hand. Hyukjae tries to struggle but his father's grip is too strong.
Then for the first time in his life Hyukjae feels slap on his cheek. "You are as much burden as your whore mother! Five years. Five years I have been combined to you. You have stolen five years of my life kid!"
before Hyukjae can do anything his mother has grabbed him to her embrace. She runs out of house to the neighbor and calls a police.
When the polices come Hyukjae watches how they take his father away. And that's the last time he saw his father.
END OF FLASHBACK
Hyukjae snaps out of his thoughts when he hears a voices coming from the corridor. He sighs before he stands up and walks to the corridor. He sees how Donghae tries to get his shoes off but fails. "You need help?" Donghae raises his head when he hears Hyukjae's voice. "Hyukkie? What are you doing? I..I thought that you're sleeping." Donghae's voice slurs exactly the same way how Hyukjae's father's did.
Hyukjae ignores the pain inside him and walks to help Donghae. When he tries to help him Donghae pushes his hand away. "I don't need your help. Go away." Hyukjae fights against the tears but he knows that he can't win so he turns and walks to the kitchen.
He cries silently when he listens all the cursing coming from the other room. He doesn't notice that Donghae comes to the kitchen and looks at him. "What are you crying? You ar such a cry baby Hyukkie. Do we have anything to drink?"
Dongahe opens a fridge and takes a bottle of soju. When he is about to open it Hyukjae grabs his hand and takes the bottle away from him. "What are you doing! Give it to me Hyukkie!" "NO! You have drank enough already!"
Donghae is getting angry. How Hyukjae can say him that he has already drank enough? "Give me that damn soju Hyukjae!" Hyukjae just shakes his head. "No Hae. You have drank enough. You go somewhere every evening. Every night I wait for you coming back but you come home later and later every night. You sleep when I'm going to work and when I come home from work you have left. So no I don't give you this bottle."
Donghae looks his boyfriend before talking. "Fine. if you don't give me that bottle then I'm leaving. Good night Hyukjae." "No Hae. Your not the one who is leaving. It's me and I'm not leaving alone." Donghae doesn't understand what Hyukjae is talking about. "Not alone? What are you talking about? If you are saying that you have someone else I swear.." Hyukjae shakes his head again. "No Hae I don't have anyone else. I meant that I'm pregnant. And when I leave our baby leaves with me. And after that you won't ever see us."
Donghae stares Hyukjae. He has lost his words. Hyukjae is pregnant. And his the father. Suddenly Donghae feels that he is the most horrible man in the world. "You...you are..pregnant." He asks and when he sees Hyukjae nodding he can't tell how happy he is. Hyukjae is pregnat! And his the father! He is going to be a dad!
Huge smile forms to his face and he hugs Hyukjae. "Oh my god Hyukjae! I...I..I don't know what to say. I love you so much! Please forgive me. I will change. I won't go to bars anymore or drink or..." Hyukjae silences him on his finger. "Hush Hae. I love you so much that it hurts. I can't live without you. Please don't do this again ever. Don't ingore me or hurt me. Please."
Donghae smiles and kisses Hyukjae. Slowly their kiss turns more intimate and Hyukjae moves his hands around Donghae's neck while Donghae's hands find their way to Hyukjae's waist. When they break the kiss Hyukjae sees Donghae's smirk. "I guess I have to make up all these nights you have been alone." With that he lifts Hyukjae and walks them to their bedroom.
♫♪♫
"Nghh Hae.." Hyukjae moans when Donghae licks his nipple. First he gives it couple of firm licks but when Donghae hears Hyukjae's moans he gets impatient. He takes the nipple between his teeth and pulls it a little making Hyukjae whimper due to pain. "Ahh Hae. Ple-please.."
Donghae smirks against Hyukjae chest. His baby is impatient today. Ever since Donghae brought them to bedroom Hyukjae has been begging him. But no, Hae doesn't want to give up yet. He wants to play with his cute little boyfriend before.
Donghae licks his way to Hyukjae's bellybutton and licks it. "Mmhh Hae..don't tease me." Donghae gives Hyukjae kiss. "But baby I'm not teasing you." Hyukjae rolls his eyes when he sees his stupid boyfriend looking him with those brown eyes. "Yes you are. And I don't like it."
Hyukjae changes their position so his top of Donghae. He roams his fingers around his boyfriend's well build chest before slipping them inside Donghae's boxers. "Ahh Hyukkie!" Hyukjae looks Donghae with innocent eyes and asks "What is it honey?" "You know so well. Suck me baby. Make me wett."
Hyukjae moans because of Donghae's words. He tears Donghae's boxers away and moves his position so his facing Donghae's cock. He strokes it couple of times before giving it a lick. "Nhh Hyukkie" Donghae grabs his hand around Hyukjae's hair and tries to thrust his hips upwards but Hyukjae pushes his hips back to the mattress.
Hyukjae takes Donghae's whole member inside his mouth. "Oh yes Hyukjae! Yes just like that ahhh!" Hyukjae starts to deep-throating Donghae making Donghae moaning mess.
When Donghae feels that he is close he pulls Hyukjae off from his cock and kisses him madly. "Where's the lube baby?" Donghae asks and fondles Hyukjae's ass cheeks. "Ahh I don't..ngh..I think that we don't ahh have." Donghae doesn't know what to do. He doesn't want to hurt his baby with rough sex but it isn't possible without lube. He looks Hyukjae and he feels how his member twitch. Hyukjae is sitting in his lap and sucking his own fingers. "Hy-hyukkie what are you doing?"
Hyukjae leans over so his lips are almost touching Donghae's and he whispers. "Can't you see? I'm sucking my fingers." With that he pushes two of them inside his entrance and moans loudly. Donghae swears that he could have come in that moment. Hyukjae on his lap, eyes closed and lips parted pleasuring himself.
"Hae! Ohh Hae please fuck me. AHH PLEASE!" Donghae couldn't take it anymore. He tears Hyukjae's finger off from his entrance and positions Hyukjae to his member. After this he grabs his hands to Hyukjae's hips and slams him down to his erection. Hyukjae screams when he feels Donghae's member sliding inside him.
They stay a still event thought Donghae wants to ram his cock hard and fast inside his lover he can't. He has wounded him already too much. "Ahh Hyuk...move" Hyukjae does what Donghae says and starts to move his hips up and down slowly.
Hyukjae fastens his speed and is soon bouncing on Donghae's cock. Hyukjae moves his hand to Donghae's back and scratches it with his fingers. Donghae winces little due to pain but he doesn't care. It actually turns him on more.
"AHHH Hae! There ohh!" Donghae smirks. Finally it's found. Donghae moves their position so his top of Hyukjae. He lifts Hyukjae's legs to his shoulders and starts to pistoning in and out of Hyukjae's hole. "AHH! HAE THERE! Please!" Donghae kisses Hyukjae before asking what he wants. "Please Hae! Touch me!"
Donghae gladly obey and starts to stroke Hyukjae's member. With double simulation Hyukjae can feel that he will cum soon. "Hae I..ahh..I'm coming." "Come for me baby."
After couple of hard thrusts Hyukjae cums between his and Donghae's bodys with a loud moan. Donghae throws his head back when he feels his lovers entrance squish his cock. He cums inside Hyukjae's entrance and keeps thrusting until he collapses top of Hyukjae. "Ahh Hae remember the baby."
Donghae's eyes widen in shock and he quickly pulls himself out of Hyukjae and lays beside him. "I'm sorry baby. Did I hurt you." Hyukjae laughs when he sees Donghae speaking to his tummy. "Don't worry Hae. Baby is alright." Donghae smiles and kisses Hyukjae's lips. "How about my other baby. Is he okay?"
Hyukjae rests his head to Donghae's chest and plays with Donghae's fingers. "He is fine too Hae. He was hurt before but now he is fine because he knows that you love him. And I love you too Hae."
Tears form in Donghae's eyes when he hears Hyukjae words. "I'm so sorry Hyukkie. I'm so sorry for making you suffer. From now on I will take care of you and our babies." Hyukjae raises his head and looks Donghae. "Babies? We're not getting twins Hae. Just one baby." "I know but I want a lot of babies with you. Making them is so so fun."
Hyukjae blushes because of Donghaes words. "Argh I hate you!" He yells and turns around so his back is facing Donghae. "WHAT? No you can't hate me! I know you love me. And I also know that you love making babies." When Donghae tries to hug Hyukjae, Hyukjae kicks him out of bed. "Awww baby that hurt." "Shut up I'm trying to sleep. And no don't try to climb back to the bed. You are sleeping on a couch tonight"
Donghae doesn't have any other option than to obey and try to sleep on a cold and uncomfortable couch. "Damn those hormones!"
A/N: Okay I have 4 words to say: I hate this fic >__>. This almost killed me D: I have write this hmmm let me think...2 weeks? I know. Long time, right? And that smut scene...yuck >__>. Anyway thanks for comments and reading everybody ♥