Missing
Title: Missing
Pairing: Haehyuk
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst
Warning: character's death
Summary: Hyukjae can't forget Donghae.
Please, please forgive me, but I won't be home again. I know what you do to yourself, I breathe deep and cry out; "Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?"
I try to forget you but every time I close my eyes the pictures of you and me appear. All the happy memories. All the good memories of us together. Those were the good times when I felt loved. I was happy, no WE were happy. At least I thought so.
Now the all I feel is misery. I feel that I'm closed in small box. The box which I can't open and there isn't anyone to open it. You closed me to this box when you left so why can't you help me out of here? I need you. I miss you. I love you
Love and hate, both blind but deep, why can't you see what's going on? The long centuries in an hour, as I close my tired eyes
I want to hate. I want to hate you because what you did Donghae. I want to forget you but I can't. Even you broke my heart by running away with that man, I can't. I want to hate that man but I can't. You know me right? I don't know the word 'hate'. I don't know what it means. I have never said to anyone that I hate them. How could I? There is enough hate in this word: brothers go against each others, wars, teenagers who hate others without reason.
You know that I see the world as a beautiful place. Well I saw it as a beautiful place. Now I realise that I was naive. I didn't realise that world isn't beautiful. I realised that humans aren't beautiful. Even the babies aren't. When they grow up they become as mean as their parents. But that's life.
When you left our own little perfect world shattered to hundreds of tiny pieces as well as my heart. You may not sense it but my heart left with you. I know you doesn't feel it. It's under that other man's heart because mine is already small and weak. It misses you Donghae. You are the one who fed my heart. Now there isn't anybody. As well as human heart will die if it doesn't get food. The only difference is that heart needs love.
You showed me dreams, I wished they'd turn into real. You broke a promise and made me realize. It was all just a lie.
'"Hyukkie look comet! Wish something baby." I close my eyes and wish that we could be together forever.t "What did you wished?" "If I tell then the wish won't come true." "C'mon tell me baby. We don't have secrets, right?" I think a moment and then I tell you. "I wished that we will be together forever." You laugh at me. "Aww stupid monkey. Of course we will be together forever. I love you!"'
I wake up crying. Again I dreamed about you. I dreamed that night when you said that we will be together forever. Do you remember? You promised but still you broke you promise. You told me that you love me. Do you? Do you still love me even you have another man already. I think you have forget me already. That you don't even miss me. You have him now.
You have him now. He is the one who you tell your feelings. You tell him all the bad and good things. He is the one who snuggles against you on bed. The one you love.
I don't have anyone who to tell what I feel. I don't have no one who to snuggle. I'm on my own. All along. You know how I hate being alone. I scare the darkness. I felt strong when I was with you but now when you're gone I am weak. I don't have the power to live anymore. You were my power source but now you're gone.
I walk to the bathroom and open medicine cabinet and take bottle of painkillers and another bottle of sleeping spills. I walk back to my room with bottles and class of water on my hands. I empty the bottles to my mouth and drink the water. After that I settle down on my bed and take the picture of you and me to my hand.
Soon the effect of pills start and Hyukjae looks the picture. Tears are flowing down to his cheeks and before his eyes close he whispers: Good bye Donghae, my first and only love.
A/N: Angsty >__<. The first song is Evanescence - Missing, second Bloodpit - Platitude and third Within Temptation - Angels
Pairing: Haehyuk
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst
Warning: character's death
Summary: Hyukjae can't forget Donghae.
Please, please forgive me, but I won't be home again. I know what you do to yourself, I breathe deep and cry out; "Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?"
I try to forget you but every time I close my eyes the pictures of you and me appear. All the happy memories. All the good memories of us together. Those were the good times when I felt loved. I was happy, no WE were happy. At least I thought so.
Now the all I feel is misery. I feel that I'm closed in small box. The box which I can't open and there isn't anyone to open it. You closed me to this box when you left so why can't you help me out of here? I need you. I miss you. I love you
Love and hate, both blind but deep, why can't you see what's going on? The long centuries in an hour, as I close my tired eyes
I want to hate. I want to hate you because what you did Donghae. I want to forget you but I can't. Even you broke my heart by running away with that man, I can't. I want to hate that man but I can't. You know me right? I don't know the word 'hate'. I don't know what it means. I have never said to anyone that I hate them. How could I? There is enough hate in this word: brothers go against each others, wars, teenagers who hate others without reason.
You know that I see the world as a beautiful place. Well I saw it as a beautiful place. Now I realise that I was naive. I didn't realise that world isn't beautiful. I realised that humans aren't beautiful. Even the babies aren't. When they grow up they become as mean as their parents. But that's life.
When you left our own little perfect world shattered to hundreds of tiny pieces as well as my heart. You may not sense it but my heart left with you. I know you doesn't feel it. It's under that other man's heart because mine is already small and weak. It misses you Donghae. You are the one who fed my heart. Now there isn't anybody. As well as human heart will die if it doesn't get food. The only difference is that heart needs love.
You showed me dreams, I wished they'd turn into real. You broke a promise and made me realize. It was all just a lie.
'"Hyukkie look comet! Wish something baby." I close my eyes and wish that we could be together forever.t "What did you wished?" "If I tell then the wish won't come true." "C'mon tell me baby. We don't have secrets, right?" I think a moment and then I tell you. "I wished that we will be together forever." You laugh at me. "Aww stupid monkey. Of course we will be together forever. I love you!"'
I wake up crying. Again I dreamed about you. I dreamed that night when you said that we will be together forever. Do you remember? You promised but still you broke you promise. You told me that you love me. Do you? Do you still love me even you have another man already. I think you have forget me already. That you don't even miss me. You have him now.
You have him now. He is the one who you tell your feelings. You tell him all the bad and good things. He is the one who snuggles against you on bed. The one you love.
I don't have anyone who to tell what I feel. I don't have no one who to snuggle. I'm on my own. All along. You know how I hate being alone. I scare the darkness. I felt strong when I was with you but now when you're gone I am weak. I don't have the power to live anymore. You were my power source but now you're gone.
I walk to the bathroom and open medicine cabinet and take bottle of painkillers and another bottle of sleeping spills. I walk back to my room with bottles and class of water on my hands. I empty the bottles to my mouth and drink the water. After that I settle down on my bed and take the picture of you and me to my hand.
Soon the effect of pills start and Hyukjae looks the picture. Tears are flowing down to his cheeks and before his eyes close he whispers: Good bye Donghae, my first and only love.
A/N: Angsty >__<. The first song is Evanescence - Missing, second Bloodpit - Platitude and third Within Temptation - Angels