Thinking out loud
This is kinda going to me an odd post. I'm feeling kind of contemplative about myself, but in a good way. I'm not upset, I'm not lovesick, I'm not even really lonely at the moment, so this shouldn't even be a depressing post. Weird already, huh?
I've always said I don't consider myself a geek or nerd. When I state this, most often the person I've said this to looks at me and either laughs or tells me that I am obviously a nerd from the things I enjoy. But the things you do as hobbies do not make you a nerd. I'm sort of learning that a great deal of my life has been in pursuit of my hobbies, and now that they are falling away, I am seeing that great gulf of time and energy vacant. And I want to fill it with things that are not considered geeky at all.
The thing is, this feels natural, and it is natural for me. I've always been able to do whatever I set my mind to well. It's the things that don't use my mind that I have trouble calling up the will to do. Walking doesn't use my mind, so I need a destination to go walking. I need a time frame in which I am supposed to be there and back to make it something I need to do. Preferably on a weekly basis.
I know walking is good for me, I have the time after work and on the weekend. But I am less likely to do it if I do not have a reason or destination to complete. Magic is/was the same way. It just had more destinations and reason to be attractive. Social interaction, puzzle manipulation, challenge and friends, all in one game. Does that really make someone a geek or a nerd? Does being saavy with electronics make one a nerd or a geek? I think my grandma has an Ipod now. My grandma does not qualify as a geek boys and girls.
The true problem I am having at this point is finding people I want to spend time with that aren't into all the things that I have been doing the last ten years. I will probably continue keeping up with Magic and the other things I've been doing, but probably not as steadily. I want to lose some weight, I want to fill in the gaps in my social life. I want to be able describe myself in terms that don't only include references to gaming.
On the other hand, I don't want to only describe myself in terms of working out, either.
I've always said I don't consider myself a geek or nerd. When I state this, most often the person I've said this to looks at me and either laughs or tells me that I am obviously a nerd from the things I enjoy. But the things you do as hobbies do not make you a nerd. I'm sort of learning that a great deal of my life has been in pursuit of my hobbies, and now that they are falling away, I am seeing that great gulf of time and energy vacant. And I want to fill it with things that are not considered geeky at all.
The thing is, this feels natural, and it is natural for me. I've always been able to do whatever I set my mind to well. It's the things that don't use my mind that I have trouble calling up the will to do. Walking doesn't use my mind, so I need a destination to go walking. I need a time frame in which I am supposed to be there and back to make it something I need to do. Preferably on a weekly basis.
I know walking is good for me, I have the time after work and on the weekend. But I am less likely to do it if I do not have a reason or destination to complete. Magic is/was the same way. It just had more destinations and reason to be attractive. Social interaction, puzzle manipulation, challenge and friends, all in one game. Does that really make someone a geek or a nerd? Does being saavy with electronics make one a nerd or a geek? I think my grandma has an Ipod now. My grandma does not qualify as a geek boys and girls.
The true problem I am having at this point is finding people I want to spend time with that aren't into all the things that I have been doing the last ten years. I will probably continue keeping up with Magic and the other things I've been doing, but probably not as steadily. I want to lose some weight, I want to fill in the gaps in my social life. I want to be able describe myself in terms that don't only include references to gaming.
On the other hand, I don't want to only describe myself in terms of working out, either.