Nov 27, 2005 17:16
in sacramento, staring at a pcture of bush petting a turkey. the november page of the bush calandar....went through three days of watching varous skinned animals cooked, fried, baked and boiled. worst was the boiled. 'crab night' consists of taking live crab abd putting them in boiling water. everyone stands around and makes amazed comments about how they squirm and 'hiss'. grandpa doesnt understand why i cry over such dumb little things as watching ten people dismember the bodies of 25 crustacians i made friends with that morning.
i LOVE family reunions.
so i am here. very much alone. wanting to be somewhere where no one knows what i am saying and i dont know what they're saying.
i had a dream about you last night, is that weird? i am finding i miss you more then i planned to. i am finding i care about you more then i want to... i am wishing i knew how to do things i dont do....