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nothing means anything.
i feel so goddamn stupid....
you used me
but only because i chose to let you.
make me a big sign, to hang around my neck.....'#2' is what it can say.....and then with each day you can tie something to it....a token of how trivial i am...until it weighs so heavy on my heart that it breaks me.
I feel like I am constantly at odds with myself, and therefore at odds with everyone else. even when I am agreeing with things...I feel like no one is listening and no one cares....and then....i understand why they dont.
you love eachother because you are almost identical, you love me because I am not at all like you....the difference is the love for me is plutonic....so therefore i am the one designated translator and warrior for your fucked up, unspoken attraction. awesome.
What if I regret all of this soon? what about how i can never take it back?
i feel so goddamn stupid....
you used me
but only because i chose to let you.
make me a big sign, to hang around my neck.....'#2' is what it can say.....and then with each day you can tie something to it....a token of how trivial i am...until it weighs so heavy on my heart that it breaks me.
I feel like I am constantly at odds with myself, and therefore at odds with everyone else. even when I am agreeing with things...I feel like no one is listening and no one cares....and then....i understand why they dont.
you love eachother because you are almost identical, you love me because I am not at all like you....the difference is the love for me is plutonic....so therefore i am the one designated translator and warrior for your fucked up, unspoken attraction. awesome.
What if I regret all of this soon? what about how i can never take it back?