As the years fall down
So I'm finally 21. What a strange, strange feeling. I'm legal, fuck, what am I going to rant about now?! heh, I'm sure I'll find something. So anyway...
I'm looking for another job. I'm glad I came across this greenhouse thing, very glad, it's not a bad job, I just wish the pay was going to stay as good as it is. I guess I'll pick up a couple of applications today. I'm supposed to go with my mom to just take a look at a few houses, which is kind of really really important because we have to be out of this one by June 1st. I suppose if the worst comes to worst I know I have friends that I can stay with.
Hanging out with Kendra just kicks ass. I've been able to see her a lot lately, and I'm so thankful for that. Something about me is changing, I can feel it. I almost just generally feel calmer, more patient, more confident. It's been nice to actually be in the company of people who just accept me. Not enough of us humans do that anymore, just accept a person. I've always been accepted by her though, as far as I can remember anyway. I just can't imagine where I would be today if it weren't for the help from the few friends that I do indeed have left. I'm doing really good on my own so far, I think. I suppose I haven't done much painting or writing, but I've also been busy so far and everything is just so up in the air with this moving thing.... I feel good. I've made it this far with nobody at my side, and I can make it even further. Nothing but the darkness to hold me up, and it's ok.
Wow... I really haven't even updated in forever, and so many things have happened, but it's just going to have to wait. I can't actually finish this right now. Sorry.
....To be continued...
I'm looking for another job. I'm glad I came across this greenhouse thing, very glad, it's not a bad job, I just wish the pay was going to stay as good as it is. I guess I'll pick up a couple of applications today. I'm supposed to go with my mom to just take a look at a few houses, which is kind of really really important because we have to be out of this one by June 1st. I suppose if the worst comes to worst I know I have friends that I can stay with.
Hanging out with Kendra just kicks ass. I've been able to see her a lot lately, and I'm so thankful for that. Something about me is changing, I can feel it. I almost just generally feel calmer, more patient, more confident. It's been nice to actually be in the company of people who just accept me. Not enough of us humans do that anymore, just accept a person. I've always been accepted by her though, as far as I can remember anyway. I just can't imagine where I would be today if it weren't for the help from the few friends that I do indeed have left. I'm doing really good on my own so far, I think. I suppose I haven't done much painting or writing, but I've also been busy so far and everything is just so up in the air with this moving thing.... I feel good. I've made it this far with nobody at my side, and I can make it even further. Nothing but the darkness to hold me up, and it's ok.
Wow... I really haven't even updated in forever, and so many things have happened, but it's just going to have to wait. I can't actually finish this right now. Sorry.
....To be continued...