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Well it has been awhile since my last update so I thought I would jot a little note. I am recovering from a very severe back episode, I am finally able to sit comfortably, and as you can imagine this past 60 hour week sitting in my office chair was no fun at all. My dog's problems now seem to be on the mend, but it left her very scared. She used to love seeing me drive up and would come to the fence very excited and want her kiss on the nose, now she still comes to the fence, but when she sees it is my car she cowers and walks away. I can only attribute this to her associating my car now with the vet experience. I thought it would pass quickly, but it hasn't. I'm sure it may sound trivial to some, but I don't have kids and that damn dog is like a daughter to me and I have to admit it breaks my heart, but I am so glad she feels better.
The stress level at work only seems to be getting worse, I just can't get in a rhythym to get the things I want to do done, as I travel from emergency to emergency, and in the process am helping train two new women. One gets so stressed sometimes I see her just wanting to cry. Of course there is a lady in another managers group next to mine that just has a cackle laugh. I told the other manager maybe she would like some of my groups work as she obviously has way to much time on our hands. The part that irritates me the most is after 5 when my people are still there working their ass off the cackler stays there and calls her friends up and just cackles on the phone until 7. The way I look at it if you aren't working...leave the building, hell I would if I didn't have things to do.
I just watched Fox News and saw where Johnny Carson died. Part of that brought a smile and part brought an internal tear. He was part of my childhood as an entertainer and when I lived in LA had the opportunity to speak to him several times. He was quite a class act, he came from an era when comedians could be funny without using shock value to get a laugh. He was great to have on in the background as I did my college homework, thanks John for getting it right and painting all the smiles you did, what an artist.
Church seemed a little surreal today, I was very tired and I sort of went through it in dream state, the priest spoke of how we have become an era of individualists and how it is important to remember our fellow man, and the smallest thing that we may do can easily be the greatest thing that ever occurs in another's life. Though I was extremely tired, I had a joyous heart and I think I sang a little louder than usual, and shook my neighbor's hands a little harder than usual. Should you want to know why just keep reading.
And then there is blue.
Okay let me try to type a nice paragraph here without getting tooooooo mushy, and if I do....hey its my journal. I guess it hit me again , just what a bond we truly do have, last night when we were talking about a lack of collaring ceremonies these days and how there used to be so many, often the same person within just a few weeks of the last time they were collared or so it seems. We've been together for two years and we certainly have had ups and down, but when the smoke clears we not only love each other but we really really like each other. There are many times when you may love someone but you just can't like them. I was tired at church today because I didn't go to bed quite when I normally would, and it was because of this. I was on the phone with her and started to say goodnight and she in her wonderfully girlish way pleaded with me to talk to her some more. We talked about everything, we talked of nothing substantial, but that excitement in her voice when she knows I am spending additional time with her, well that really does it for me, of course Friday night really did it for me too, but I'll keep that just between you and I little one. Looking back I really don't know if I picked her or she picked me, I'd like to think that it was just that magical thing where we chose each other at the same time. This I do know though, I am already looking forward to seeing her again. Soon her hubby returns home, and though I celebrate immensely in my heart because I know they have missed eachother so much, I am a little sad because I won't get to see her as much...hey I'm spoiled I readily admit it. We'll just make the time we can spend with eachother even more special. I love you little one.
Well that is the life of Mav on January 23rd, 2005, thank you and good evening.
The stress level at work only seems to be getting worse, I just can't get in a rhythym to get the things I want to do done, as I travel from emergency to emergency, and in the process am helping train two new women. One gets so stressed sometimes I see her just wanting to cry. Of course there is a lady in another managers group next to mine that just has a cackle laugh. I told the other manager maybe she would like some of my groups work as she obviously has way to much time on our hands. The part that irritates me the most is after 5 when my people are still there working their ass off the cackler stays there and calls her friends up and just cackles on the phone until 7. The way I look at it if you aren't working...leave the building, hell I would if I didn't have things to do.
I just watched Fox News and saw where Johnny Carson died. Part of that brought a smile and part brought an internal tear. He was part of my childhood as an entertainer and when I lived in LA had the opportunity to speak to him several times. He was quite a class act, he came from an era when comedians could be funny without using shock value to get a laugh. He was great to have on in the background as I did my college homework, thanks John for getting it right and painting all the smiles you did, what an artist.
Church seemed a little surreal today, I was very tired and I sort of went through it in dream state, the priest spoke of how we have become an era of individualists and how it is important to remember our fellow man, and the smallest thing that we may do can easily be the greatest thing that ever occurs in another's life. Though I was extremely tired, I had a joyous heart and I think I sang a little louder than usual, and shook my neighbor's hands a little harder than usual. Should you want to know why just keep reading.
And then there is blue.
Okay let me try to type a nice paragraph here without getting tooooooo mushy, and if I do....hey its my journal. I guess it hit me again , just what a bond we truly do have, last night when we were talking about a lack of collaring ceremonies these days and how there used to be so many, often the same person within just a few weeks of the last time they were collared or so it seems. We've been together for two years and we certainly have had ups and down, but when the smoke clears we not only love each other but we really really like each other. There are many times when you may love someone but you just can't like them. I was tired at church today because I didn't go to bed quite when I normally would, and it was because of this. I was on the phone with her and started to say goodnight and she in her wonderfully girlish way pleaded with me to talk to her some more. We talked about everything, we talked of nothing substantial, but that excitement in her voice when she knows I am spending additional time with her, well that really does it for me, of course Friday night really did it for me too, but I'll keep that just between you and I little one. Looking back I really don't know if I picked her or she picked me, I'd like to think that it was just that magical thing where we chose each other at the same time. This I do know though, I am already looking forward to seeing her again. Soon her hubby returns home, and though I celebrate immensely in my heart because I know they have missed eachother so much, I am a little sad because I won't get to see her as much...hey I'm spoiled I readily admit it. We'll just make the time we can spend with eachother even more special. I love you little one.
Well that is the life of Mav on January 23rd, 2005, thank you and good evening.