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Ok I just went out with Jen again and either she is totally manipulating me and playing me like a fiddle or she is the perfect girl for me in every way.
The stupid stuff she spews that’s intelligent, same logic in the stupid stuff I spew, the things I say that no one else ever gets she understands almost immediately (unless I am being completely stupid and random on purpose and then she just laughs at me).
She told me that she loves it when a guy opens a door for her or walks her to her car, that is so rare these days that I love it, because I love doing that kind of stuff and I am sick of hearing "I can do it myself" like I am to stupid to realize that, she understands that it simply being kind and curious. She knows I get over protective and thinks its cute and its one of the main reasons she is attracted to me. She loves animals (despite being allergic to almost everything but fish), she has a wonderful sense of humor and she can make anyone smile if they giver her half a chance. She gets along great with my friends that she has met (George, Ashley, Jean, and Stephanie (forensic one)). She asks me things straight out and answers things the same, no stupid games. Although she can act like something straight out of an anime once you understand that she can be completely serous and classy when she needs to it becomes playful.
The only down sides are she has a boyfriend, which is resolving itself, that is why she wouldn't kiss me earlier. She won't break up with someone over the phone and she never gets to see him at all and when she does her always winds up in tears (won't tell me why, doesn’t want me in a fight). So she is tiring to get him to see her so she can end it but she wants me around in case things get bad, I of course told her that I would have no problem with that. The only other even close to real problem is she likes alcohol but has a ridiculously low tolerance for it. Tonight she had half a glass of wine and couldn't walk straight, that’s just weird. I kind of was reminded of the seen in family guy where peter goes "butter rum's my favorite" proceeds to take a lick and fall through the table.
I stopped and looked at it since my last post and realized why I freaked out. I have never felt this close to someone this fast, we completely complicate each other and we really are a "Dharma and Greg" couple. I just keep feeling that all of a sudden everything is going to spin out of control and crash in a flaming pile of sh*t. I need to stop doing that, I may get hurt but I have told many people it's better to go all out and get your heart broke then to never try and never take the chance at happiness, I won't be a hypocrite on something I believe so strongly in.
"Sometimes my heart is as true of a dove, sometimes my heart it betrays me, so I draw my sword to fight for my love, without a whisper she slays me" -Garth Brooks in the song Pushing up Daisies"
The stupid stuff she spews that’s intelligent, same logic in the stupid stuff I spew, the things I say that no one else ever gets she understands almost immediately (unless I am being completely stupid and random on purpose and then she just laughs at me).
She told me that she loves it when a guy opens a door for her or walks her to her car, that is so rare these days that I love it, because I love doing that kind of stuff and I am sick of hearing "I can do it myself" like I am to stupid to realize that, she understands that it simply being kind and curious. She knows I get over protective and thinks its cute and its one of the main reasons she is attracted to me. She loves animals (despite being allergic to almost everything but fish), she has a wonderful sense of humor and she can make anyone smile if they giver her half a chance. She gets along great with my friends that she has met (George, Ashley, Jean, and Stephanie (forensic one)). She asks me things straight out and answers things the same, no stupid games. Although she can act like something straight out of an anime once you understand that she can be completely serous and classy when she needs to it becomes playful.
The only down sides are she has a boyfriend, which is resolving itself, that is why she wouldn't kiss me earlier. She won't break up with someone over the phone and she never gets to see him at all and when she does her always winds up in tears (won't tell me why, doesn’t want me in a fight). So she is tiring to get him to see her so she can end it but she wants me around in case things get bad, I of course told her that I would have no problem with that. The only other even close to real problem is she likes alcohol but has a ridiculously low tolerance for it. Tonight she had half a glass of wine and couldn't walk straight, that’s just weird. I kind of was reminded of the seen in family guy where peter goes "butter rum's my favorite" proceeds to take a lick and fall through the table.
I stopped and looked at it since my last post and realized why I freaked out. I have never felt this close to someone this fast, we completely complicate each other and we really are a "Dharma and Greg" couple. I just keep feeling that all of a sudden everything is going to spin out of control and crash in a flaming pile of sh*t. I need to stop doing that, I may get hurt but I have told many people it's better to go all out and get your heart broke then to never try and never take the chance at happiness, I won't be a hypocrite on something I believe so strongly in.
"Sometimes my heart is as true of a dove, sometimes my heart it betrays me, so I draw my sword to fight for my love, without a whisper she slays me" -Garth Brooks in the song Pushing up Daisies"