And i miss John Lennon's Laugh
don't want to start thinking again. Not like I have this last week. I can't think again. Not ever again. I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning."
It has been a while so where to begin?..........................school and life are kicking my ass- basically if I make it to thanksgiving it will be a miracle...........Katie i know i said i wanted to go on friday but my dad is sick again and I cant b/c he might be in the hospital and so i dont really think I can/should go im sorry .............school is just murdering me left and right.............even when i dont go out on weekends monday still rolls around and somehow it doesnt matter how much work I did this weekend im behind...............its been weeks since I can say that I legitimately understood what was going on in mechanics, and the lack of a social life that results from school isnt helping the overall situation that Im stuck in ......................and we wont even get into what is going on at home..................... other ways that life has shit on me in the past week some a-hole broke the washer in our building and decided not to tell anyone so basically it ate my money and woulldnt wash my clothes.........................I cant wait for winter break and a change of pace/scenery................
this neighborhood is starting to rot;
years ago it was filled with kids who wanted to go to school and achieve success.
Now it's just the kids from broken homes who rather spend their life on the street;
searching for a high that will erase the memories of a previous life.