Different?
....Hey. It's been a while, I know. I have no excuse why I shouldn't have been writing more often here and for that I am eternally sorry.
Nothing is new, everything is still the same...I think. I still have no life at all and just come home every day from the monotinous routine at school and sit down right here on this damn pillow and spend my life right here with my hands on this contraption of plastic, waisting myself away...Sorry if that sounds depressing but it's all that I can think of with no one to talk to and nothing to do anywhere or go anywhere I belong.
TJ and I will be officially together for one year coming the end of the month...this is all that I have to brighten my days.
Sometimes I swear TJ is what kept me from killing myself so long ago...He came along to make me smile and fill my heart, and unlike others, he wants to stay...I love him so much I don't know what I could ever do without him. I love you so much Timothy Henderson.
I know sometimes I exaggerate things and make them seem so much worse than they are or way better than they are, if thats ever a case...But I want to say something to the two people that I wish I were closer to and could relate to somehow. You know who you are if you are reading this...But you two are the most important people in my life next to the man of my dreams. I would do anything to save you two and to make sure you have a good day if it means the very cost of my own life. You two alone have kept me from just cracking and doing the things I want to do but I know I shouldn't. It means so much to me that you would even consider me to be worthy of even talking to such beautiful souls as you. I wish I could call you more than friends...but the most pure and beautiful souls doesn't sound really sound too nice to call you everytime I mention you or speak to you....hehe, sorry.
Either way I am sorry for all that I have written if it doesn't give the effect that I would hope for. I love you all so very much.
Nothing is new, everything is still the same...I think. I still have no life at all and just come home every day from the monotinous routine at school and sit down right here on this damn pillow and spend my life right here with my hands on this contraption of plastic, waisting myself away...Sorry if that sounds depressing but it's all that I can think of with no one to talk to and nothing to do anywhere or go anywhere I belong.
TJ and I will be officially together for one year coming the end of the month...this is all that I have to brighten my days.
Sometimes I swear TJ is what kept me from killing myself so long ago...He came along to make me smile and fill my heart, and unlike others, he wants to stay...I love him so much I don't know what I could ever do without him. I love you so much Timothy Henderson.
I know sometimes I exaggerate things and make them seem so much worse than they are or way better than they are, if thats ever a case...But I want to say something to the two people that I wish I were closer to and could relate to somehow. You know who you are if you are reading this...But you two are the most important people in my life next to the man of my dreams. I would do anything to save you two and to make sure you have a good day if it means the very cost of my own life. You two alone have kept me from just cracking and doing the things I want to do but I know I shouldn't. It means so much to me that you would even consider me to be worthy of even talking to such beautiful souls as you. I wish I could call you more than friends...but the most pure and beautiful souls doesn't sound really sound too nice to call you everytime I mention you or speak to you....hehe, sorry.
Either way I am sorry for all that I have written if it doesn't give the effect that I would hope for. I love you all so very much.