Almost another...
Wow, it's been so long since i've
updated. Uhm, ok, first few basic things. One, i'm alive still....yay!
Two, my lovely little kitty and dirty ol' coon are doing
wonderful....another yay! And three....well I really can't think of a
third so.....yay? Anyways things have been going great for me lately I
think.
Been on winter break and enjoying every moment of having nothing to do at all. Just sittin around in my robe and slippers, relaxing infront of a TV perhaps. It's been wonderful. Not much to do so i'm getting bored so easily.
The construction behind my house is still in progress, they finally got around to knocking down the house that was out there a while ago...well that happened a week or so ago. All the mildew and moss and stuff has gotten out of the air so everyone is feeling much better over here.
Arg, what else....My sweet little cougar sent me a card for christmas. Has a cute little kitty on the front because he knows I love cats. It was a bit hard to read at first but I love it so much.....kinda feel bad I didn't send him anything, grr.
I need a haircut so badly right now, I have to keep flicking my head to the side to knock it out of the way so I can see. I just need to think of a way to get it cut so it looks good. Last time I went to this place called Daas, I think....Anyways this lady, very nice and much better than the ukrainian lady, she suggested this "razor cut". I said sure, who cares and she went right to work. Turns out it hurt like crap while she was doing it but it looked great! I'm thinking of doing that again or cutting the front a bit shorter and putting the back into a pony tail soon. Who knows, i'll see if I can get a picture of how it is now so someone can help me out with deciding.
My dear friend Derek has been having some troubles lately with this guy he knows. I don't know if he'd like me telling everyone or just to leave it private with us....so no story, sorry.
Oh man I can't think of didly squat to talk about. Not much has happened at all for a long time now really.....my sister turned 18 finally and now it's time to get the parents to kick her and the damn annoying mexican she brought in with her OUT! Right now Paco has been in California with his dad and stuff visiting around and stuff and I am loving every minute of him being gone!!! So good to not have some creepy, hairy, annoying little piece of shit ass fucking duesch packer following you around and being the most immoral human ever....arr...now i've gone and gotten myself all fucking pissed off. Damnit, I hate when I do this.
Anyways Jen sent me a few messages a few days ago. She just said Hey, I closed it and ignored it because I didn't know what to do after all this time and her coming back....about twenty minutes after that she says Fine and thats all she has said to me since....am I a bad person for doing this to her? I feel like I need to tell her but i'm afraid of what she'll do if I tell her....she isn't too good at taking bad news. She's been through a lot and wasn't too right in the mind befor she left again. I knew that I would never forget her and it's been haunting me every moment. I mean I try to act like I don't mind bringing her up but some nights i'll be trying to sleep and just start crying because I don't know what to do....truely I hope that she somehow finds out without me having to tell her and letting me know. I mean how is it to go back and tell someone that, "Sorry, the person you told me not to fall for is now my lover and i'm leaving you for him because I have no feelings for you...." I could say it but never live after saying that.
God damnit, I keep fucking upsetting myself....fuck it, i'm going now...ugh. Pardon my language, I did not mean to be so offensive. Sweet dreams everyone and I beg of you to have a better New Years than I, but that won't be hard to beat. Sweet dreams everyone.....
Been on winter break and enjoying every moment of having nothing to do at all. Just sittin around in my robe and slippers, relaxing infront of a TV perhaps. It's been wonderful. Not much to do so i'm getting bored so easily.
The construction behind my house is still in progress, they finally got around to knocking down the house that was out there a while ago...well that happened a week or so ago. All the mildew and moss and stuff has gotten out of the air so everyone is feeling much better over here.
Arg, what else....My sweet little cougar sent me a card for christmas. Has a cute little kitty on the front because he knows I love cats. It was a bit hard to read at first but I love it so much.....kinda feel bad I didn't send him anything, grr.
I need a haircut so badly right now, I have to keep flicking my head to the side to knock it out of the way so I can see. I just need to think of a way to get it cut so it looks good. Last time I went to this place called Daas, I think....Anyways this lady, very nice and much better than the ukrainian lady, she suggested this "razor cut". I said sure, who cares and she went right to work. Turns out it hurt like crap while she was doing it but it looked great! I'm thinking of doing that again or cutting the front a bit shorter and putting the back into a pony tail soon. Who knows, i'll see if I can get a picture of how it is now so someone can help me out with deciding.
My dear friend Derek has been having some troubles lately with this guy he knows. I don't know if he'd like me telling everyone or just to leave it private with us....so no story, sorry.
Oh man I can't think of didly squat to talk about. Not much has happened at all for a long time now really.....my sister turned 18 finally and now it's time to get the parents to kick her and the damn annoying mexican she brought in with her OUT! Right now Paco has been in California with his dad and stuff visiting around and stuff and I am loving every minute of him being gone!!! So good to not have some creepy, hairy, annoying little piece of shit ass fucking duesch packer following you around and being the most immoral human ever....arr...now i've gone and gotten myself all fucking pissed off. Damnit, I hate when I do this.
Anyways Jen sent me a few messages a few days ago. She just said Hey, I closed it and ignored it because I didn't know what to do after all this time and her coming back....about twenty minutes after that she says Fine and thats all she has said to me since....am I a bad person for doing this to her? I feel like I need to tell her but i'm afraid of what she'll do if I tell her....she isn't too good at taking bad news. She's been through a lot and wasn't too right in the mind befor she left again. I knew that I would never forget her and it's been haunting me every moment. I mean I try to act like I don't mind bringing her up but some nights i'll be trying to sleep and just start crying because I don't know what to do....truely I hope that she somehow finds out without me having to tell her and letting me know. I mean how is it to go back and tell someone that, "Sorry, the person you told me not to fall for is now my lover and i'm leaving you for him because I have no feelings for you...." I could say it but never live after saying that.
God damnit, I keep fucking upsetting myself....fuck it, i'm going now...ugh. Pardon my language, I did not mean to be so offensive. Sweet dreams everyone and I beg of you to have a better New Years than I, but that won't be hard to beat. Sweet dreams everyone.....