Anyone out there?
I'm so fucking bored right now. I
feel like there is no-onoe out there. I just feel right now like i'm
empty. I have only 3 people I can talk to and be truthful with. Sure
there is Steven and Jacob I can call but they don't know the real me. I
just feel that i'm alone right now...but who gives a shit. People don't
want to talk to me most of the time so why worry about it, right?
Anyways right now I am so freakin out of it. Sorry if I sound like i'm
whining. This weekend was ok and stuff but not really that great
overall. I basically did nothing, only good parts was talkinig to TJ on
friday and tonight and talking to RJ last night, though my ear started
to hurt and he made me go to sleep (his work is really loud).....
TJ told me to leave him a message so he can read it befor he goes to school to put him in a good mood...I don't know what to say in it. Usually he tells me about a dream he had and stuff like that. Last night I wrote him one about a dream....ended up having to be fit into 5 messages because YIM can't let us freaking type more than like 250 characters so it seems. Anyways....I'll be thinkning about that for a while. I was playing DDR tonight while I was on the phone with TJ and I kinda felt bad because I can't really focus on anything while i'm dancing so I felt like I was ignoring hiim....I'm really mad at myself about doing that....
Enough about TJ and stuff because most of you probably don't care much for doting over him so much. Uh....SWG is coming out with a new CU and it's not as bad as I thought but it's basically going to be a completely new game. It took me a few hours to get into TC because they were all full. It's ok but theres a lot that pisses me off still. (sorry if there is a lot of typos and bad capitalization, this keyboard really sucks that i'm using.) Anyways....
I'm really thirsty right now...Besides that I kinda feel out of it. I don't really feel like i'm being myself anymore. I feel that something has started to change me but I don't know what it is. I guess I just feel like shit...I guess i'm getting sick again.
TJ told me to leave him a message so he can read it befor he goes to school to put him in a good mood...I don't know what to say in it. Usually he tells me about a dream he had and stuff like that. Last night I wrote him one about a dream....ended up having to be fit into 5 messages because YIM can't let us freaking type more than like 250 characters so it seems. Anyways....I'll be thinkning about that for a while. I was playing DDR tonight while I was on the phone with TJ and I kinda felt bad because I can't really focus on anything while i'm dancing so I felt like I was ignoring hiim....I'm really mad at myself about doing that....
Enough about TJ and stuff because most of you probably don't care much for doting over him so much. Uh....SWG is coming out with a new CU and it's not as bad as I thought but it's basically going to be a completely new game. It took me a few hours to get into TC because they were all full. It's ok but theres a lot that pisses me off still. (sorry if there is a lot of typos and bad capitalization, this keyboard really sucks that i'm using.) Anyways....
I'm really thirsty right now...Besides that I kinda feel out of it. I don't really feel like i'm being myself anymore. I feel that something has started to change me but I don't know what it is. I guess I just feel like shit...I guess i'm getting sick again.