Worst Day In a While to Come.
Today had to be one of the worst
weeks and weeks now. It started off fine and all....but then I
remembered....oh shit, good days always end bad. So I put that off and
went back to playing Brandenburg (piece we're playing in orchestra).
After that class and stuff I went to home room. Thats when the bad
started. I got on the computer to copy my K.doc even more. Then I was
like, what the hell, i'll check my mail. So I went to gmail and signed
in. TJ left me an email....I won't say what was in it on here for his
sake (talk to me if you want to know). All that day I was wishing for a
class I could lay my head down in and think about what he said to me
and asked of me. It's been killing me since then. I know what I WANT to
answer with but it's not what I SHOULD say. I've made up my mind and
i'll tell him next time we talk. I'll tell you how it goes....if anyone
reads this anymore.
I am really wishing I waited till I got home to check it though. Right after I read that I had to get to chemistry and I was just thinking about him and what he said and all thats going on with him and I missed the entire lecture. It was something about the periodic table and some Mendeleev guy...oh well. Then I went to ALG II where it really hit me hard. I had a test. I was stressing so much about it that I started to tear up and had to lay my head down and miss half of the test....I hope I can make the rest up today. After that, French. Got in there and I was so angry that I could have shoved my hand through my ear and rip out my retinas from behind.....(hehe) Mr. Smith started going on about some new vocabulary and I missed all but 2 words...great. So after that I went to lunch and sat there quitely eating 3 bags of chips my friends gave me for no reason....maybe they could tell I was stressed, I tried not to show any signs though....anyways then I went to History and luckily I got to lay my head down to rest, thank you for videos! Yay! So I was sitting there crying quitely with my head down and I fell asleep. I woke up to my friend tapping my on the arm nicely, as if he knew I was going to kill anyone who didn't mind waking me up nicely. So I quickly wiped my eyes and face with no one seeing and scurried off the last period. Nothing happened there, force to be awake. When I got home I got on SWG.....that made everything worse....
When I got on one of my best friends said he was leaving me for good and never wanted to know me anymore or talk to me again. I didn't know what was going on. Then out of the blue my other pal said the same thing....This just killed the day beyond anything....i'm going to be hurting inside for days now from all this. So after all that happened I went into my room and layed down crying....i've been crying a lot lately, damnit....and then my daddy comes home with some Arby's for me.....a sub. Just perfect too because i couldn't fit my muzzle around it because my jaw is so fucked up from something. I barely ate half before feeling like my mouth was busted into 34 pieces with a golden brick wrapped in steel wool....nothing happened after that besides Derek being the only one who was really there for me today next to Zander. Derek is my smart little fuzzy tiger friend. He is my savior. He started going on and on and making me feel better on everything really. I wasn't feeling normal still but I was doing better. After that nothing happened since. Been feeling better. Been hoping TJ would get on so I can tell him how I feel about this. Been wishing I had someone to hug....Damn I need a hug badly.
Anyways today sucked and I blame no one but myself for it. Sweet dreams everyone...hopefully I will have that dream about the wulfy again....hehe, only RJ will get that one. Anyways sweet dreams and night night.
I am really wishing I waited till I got home to check it though. Right after I read that I had to get to chemistry and I was just thinking about him and what he said and all thats going on with him and I missed the entire lecture. It was something about the periodic table and some Mendeleev guy...oh well. Then I went to ALG II where it really hit me hard. I had a test. I was stressing so much about it that I started to tear up and had to lay my head down and miss half of the test....I hope I can make the rest up today. After that, French. Got in there and I was so angry that I could have shoved my hand through my ear and rip out my retinas from behind.....(hehe) Mr. Smith started going on about some new vocabulary and I missed all but 2 words...great. So after that I went to lunch and sat there quitely eating 3 bags of chips my friends gave me for no reason....maybe they could tell I was stressed, I tried not to show any signs though....anyways then I went to History and luckily I got to lay my head down to rest, thank you for videos! Yay! So I was sitting there crying quitely with my head down and I fell asleep. I woke up to my friend tapping my on the arm nicely, as if he knew I was going to kill anyone who didn't mind waking me up nicely. So I quickly wiped my eyes and face with no one seeing and scurried off the last period. Nothing happened there, force to be awake. When I got home I got on SWG.....that made everything worse....
When I got on one of my best friends said he was leaving me for good and never wanted to know me anymore or talk to me again. I didn't know what was going on. Then out of the blue my other pal said the same thing....This just killed the day beyond anything....i'm going to be hurting inside for days now from all this. So after all that happened I went into my room and layed down crying....i've been crying a lot lately, damnit....and then my daddy comes home with some Arby's for me.....a sub. Just perfect too because i couldn't fit my muzzle around it because my jaw is so fucked up from something. I barely ate half before feeling like my mouth was busted into 34 pieces with a golden brick wrapped in steel wool....nothing happened after that besides Derek being the only one who was really there for me today next to Zander. Derek is my smart little fuzzy tiger friend. He is my savior. He started going on and on and making me feel better on everything really. I wasn't feeling normal still but I was doing better. After that nothing happened since. Been feeling better. Been hoping TJ would get on so I can tell him how I feel about this. Been wishing I had someone to hug....Damn I need a hug badly.
Anyways today sucked and I blame no one but myself for it. Sweet dreams everyone...hopefully I will have that dream about the wulfy again....hehe, only RJ will get that one. Anyways sweet dreams and night night.