Hugless
I feel like I need a hug really badly
right now for some reason. I don't know if it's from the music i'm
listening to, the people i'm talking to, or something else. I just
suddenly feel like i'm hollowing out and need someone to fill that
space. I wish you were here Jen...All I want to do is to feel you, just
to know you are there, that there is something i'm living for.
The past few nights I would leave my computer on, just letting it play a song of waves crashing into rocks on the beach, looping over and over again. And i'd lay there, hugging my pillow, wishing I was there with anyone. Right now i've just felt so alone and stranded. I just lay there every night holding my pillow 'till I fall asleep after an hour or so.
Anyways Jacob came over to my house for the first time in a while. He was over here 'till around 4:15 when his sister picked him up. Basically I was kicking his ass at Soul Caliber 2 and stuff...anyways he's going to come home with me again on friday because his sister is staying after again for something at school. The reason he has to come home with me for the ones who don't know is that he moved a while back, during last year some time and there is no bus route from his house to our school so his sister drives him. He was my first friend when I moved down here at 8 years of age. Now 7 years later he is still my best friend ever....occasionally.
I had a math test I'm trying to cheat on right now as we speak but no one can help me. I hate being in a higher class than all my friends. Basically we have 2 days to do his tests because they're hard and I wrote down the ones I didn't know and smuggled the paper out inside my body. Not really but it suited the mood. So unless someone can teach me how to do compositions really fast, i'm fucked.
I'm starting to feel really bad now so i'm going to lay down. Sweet dreams everyone.
Oh yea, it was good meeting you yesterday RJ and Heartless. ^_^ TJ, you have such cool friends.
The past few nights I would leave my computer on, just letting it play a song of waves crashing into rocks on the beach, looping over and over again. And i'd lay there, hugging my pillow, wishing I was there with anyone. Right now i've just felt so alone and stranded. I just lay there every night holding my pillow 'till I fall asleep after an hour or so.
Anyways Jacob came over to my house for the first time in a while. He was over here 'till around 4:15 when his sister picked him up. Basically I was kicking his ass at Soul Caliber 2 and stuff...anyways he's going to come home with me again on friday because his sister is staying after again for something at school. The reason he has to come home with me for the ones who don't know is that he moved a while back, during last year some time and there is no bus route from his house to our school so his sister drives him. He was my first friend when I moved down here at 8 years of age. Now 7 years later he is still my best friend ever....occasionally.
I had a math test I'm trying to cheat on right now as we speak but no one can help me. I hate being in a higher class than all my friends. Basically we have 2 days to do his tests because they're hard and I wrote down the ones I didn't know and smuggled the paper out inside my body. Not really but it suited the mood. So unless someone can teach me how to do compositions really fast, i'm fucked.
I'm starting to feel really bad now so i'm going to lay down. Sweet dreams everyone.
Oh yea, it was good meeting you yesterday RJ and Heartless. ^_^ TJ, you have such cool friends.