Trust issues.
It terrifies me that people are autonomous, that they're self-controlled. That there's not some meter you can watch, some way of measuring their inner workings, safeguarding against them deciding what you don't want them to.
I had a... it's hard to call it a nightmare, exactly, it was a dream where somebody presently important to me decided that she was done with me, and everything I've worked to build UP with her over the last few years (because we certainly didn't get along before) just kind of crumbled away in front of me. And I woke up sad and alone.
And there's like two of you who read this thing, and you'll probably both immediately guess who it was, and of course it was JUST a dream. But still.
This is what I'm afraid of.
I had a... it's hard to call it a nightmare, exactly, it was a dream where somebody presently important to me decided that she was done with me, and everything I've worked to build UP with her over the last few years (because we certainly didn't get along before) just kind of crumbled away in front of me. And I woke up sad and alone.
And there's like two of you who read this thing, and you'll probably both immediately guess who it was, and of course it was JUST a dream. But still.
This is what I'm afraid of.