It's Been A While
I found this survey in my eariler posts on my livejournal. Its been a verrrry long time since i've posted so i figured this survey was fitting since this survey is about 4 years ago and thats around when I got live journal. I've been Sober for almost 9 months (on friday), and it has possibly been one of the most life changing and intense growth periods i've had in my life. I read my old entries and see the addiction that I had through each entry. It's crazy how I lead my life through that, how much I went through and how much I put some of my most beloved friends through. Of course I never posted any of that since I didn't want to see like a douche bag. Even without posting that, by just reading my entries I was one. Most likely I still am, I just can't blame it on the drugs now.
Enjoy this survey I have decided to do instead of sleep. Hope all who still read this are well.
4 YEARS AGO
How old were you? : 14
What school year were you in? : 9th grade
Where did you go to school? : Garfield
Where did you work? : self employed
Where did you live? : Seattle
Where did you hang out? : My house, Downtown, Queen Anne, Northend, Central District
How was your hair style? : long curly, or straightened, up in pigtails.
Did you wear braces? : nope
Did you wear glasses? : Nope
Who was your best friend : Molly, Katie, Steffie, emily
Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend? : Kris... Dear god.
Who was your celebrity crush? : Lead singer of Incubus
Who was your non-celeb crush? : fuck idk, probably one of the upper class men.
How many piercings did you have? : ears, cartilage.
How many tattoos did you have? : none yet
What was your worst fear? : being fat, having no friends, not being accepted.
Had you smoked a cigarette yet? : yes
Had you gotten drunk or high yet? : yes, every day.
Had you driven yet : yes.
Had you been to a real party yet? : yes
Had your heart been broken? : meh i thought so at the time
What was your style? : oh god, well.. Fish nets, home made band t-shirts & skirts, dark make up, dock martins up to my knees, and big earrings.
Did you Play any sports? : Lacrosse
What kind of Music did you listen to (I.E. Bands/Genres)? : mainly rock and hip hop. incubus, alice in chains, mad season, stone temple pilots, tupac
NOW
How old are you? : 18, coming up on 19
Where do you go to school? : Seattle Central Community College
Where do you work? : Starbucks & See's Candies
Where do you live? : Seattle
Where do you hang out? : My house, pool halls, meetings, denny's, at my work, at my boyfriend's house.
How is your hair style? shoulder length, usually curly or wavey. its up a lot since i work.
Do you have braces? : nope
Do you wear glasses? : none.
Who are/is your best friend/s? : Katie, Molly, Jeff, Teal, Ali, James, Lyrics
Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend? : James, (and he doesn't know it yet, or atleast i haven't told him, but i love him)
Who is your celebrity crush? : Tyrese, the main guy in the transporter movies
Who is your regular-person crush? : james
How many tattoos do you have? : I have 3. An eight behind my right ear. The flower off the stone temple pilots cd Shangri La Dee Da that I promissed myself i'd get when I was 14. And my back peace which is my astrological symbols and 2 locks locked together which represents undying loyalty.
How many piercings do you have? : Ears, Cartilage. had my belly button but i took it out when i got sober.
What is your biggest fear? : not living out my dreams, not being sucessful, not figuring out my place in the world, not falling in love (although i think i might be and that scares me for some reason), growing up
Have you smoked a cigarette yet? : yes
Have you gotten high yet? : yes
Have you driven yet : yes
Have you been to a real party yet? : Yes many
Has your heart been broken? : Yepp.
What's your style? : its a mix and mash of my different styles over the years. skater/hippie/hiphop/not givin a fuck style comprised of boots,nikes, fitted jackets, scarfs, lite natural looking makeup and a smile which i didnt wear often.
Music? : Hip hop, rap, rock, reggae, blues, jazz, hippie, alturnative
RED
1. Are you mad at someone? Naw
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper? not sure
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? i threw a cigarette at tyler the other night
4. Does your face turn red when you're angry? only when im nervous or embarassed.
5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell/scream? depends on why im mad. i try and say the serenity prayer and calm down before i combat a situation.
ORANGE
1. Has anyone ever thrown you a suprise party? yes brittany through me a surprise coming back from guatemala party which was tight.
2. Are you easily excited? yes
3. What event is coming up that your most excited about? not sure
4. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought? pay my house off and buy it so i could always live here.
5. If you could have anything right now what would it be? my health, sanity and for james to be here to cuddle me to sleep..
YELLOW
1.Name? Katherine
2. Where were you born? Seattle
3. Whats your main goal in life? helping people, selling my art, lacrosse, making something inspiring. Being able to speak spanish would be cool too. travel the world, make a difference.
4. Do you want to have children? I'm not even gonna think about that yet.
5. How do you want to die? I wanna be really fucking happy. I wanna be in love. I wanna be in a good state of life. I don't wanna owe anyone anything except my love to them. I wanna be healthy, I don't wanna see my body whithering away. I want my children and Husband to be well off and happy. I dont want to be killed/die in Revenge, Hate or Anger. If all or most of these things are complete, it is fine with me.
I kept this the same.
I want to die with a smile on my face and love in my heart. Hopefully not in pain, but hey its not my choice is it.
GREEN
do you believe in...
1. Gay Marriage? Yes.
2. Lowering the drinking age? Not sure. Depends.
3. Capital Punishment? No
4. Abortion? Yes, I believe in choice.
5. Recycling? Yes, be good to our earth.
BLUE
1. What was your latest dream? I have reoccuring Zombie Dreams. They involve people i used to know, people I did drugs with all over in places i did drugs and what not. I started getting them when i first got sober. I think it has something to do with myself when i did drugs.. yeah.
2. Which of your friends do you dream about the most? jeff
3. Have any of your dreams come true? not necessarily true but they have hidden messages that my mind encodes in there that I need to figure out. So in a sense yes I guess that partially come true.
4. Do you usually remeber your dreams? I am able to now, not always but most of the time. Before I got sober I wasn't.
5. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had? Probably one Zombie dream that i woke up sweating and screaming from, or a dream about my family I had a couple months ago.
PURPLE
1. do u like the color purple? yea I guess.
2. do you have a bf/gf? Yes
3. Do you have a crush? Yes on my boyfriend
4. Who is the best "hugger"? Probably my boyfriend, big Matt, or bobby.
5. Do you believe in love at first sight? towards shoes for sure. maybe not so much with people.
Who's in the house with you? Mom, brother, and my cats.
Who was the last person to IM you? my friend david.
Who are you thinking about now? my brothers
Who did you last talk to on the phone? jeff
Who's house did you last go to? Jeffs
Who do you sit next to in you 2nd period class? I'm not in class for this quater
Who is your favorite teacher? Mrs Hungate-Hawk or Livingston
Who's birthday is next? Katies
Who was the last person you told you love them? My mommy. :)
Who do you wish you were with right now? James..
Who gets on your nerves the most from your schoo? ?
Who do you hope will take this survey? i don't care, no one probably will or even read this. ill probably stumble across this like 4 years from now and do it again for shits and giggles.
T.h.e. W.h.e.r.e.s.
Where do you go to school?
Seattle Central
Where is your phone?
On the desk.
Where are your parents?
mom's in bed, brother is in the kitchen
Where do you sleep?
In my bed.
Where do you shop the most?
35th north
Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
35th north
Where did you last take a car ride to?
To an AA meeting
Where in your house are you?
My bed room
Where did you get this survey?
my old entries in my livejournal
Where did you first hear about myspace?
I guess from adrienne and kessiah a couple years ago
T.h.e. W.h.a.t.s
What was the last thing you ate?
donut and reeses m&m's
What was the last thing you drank?
gatorade and coffee
What color pants are you wearing?
Gray
What kind of cell phone do you have?
Cingular samsung slider phone
What is the closest item near you that is blue?
my bed sheets
What do you like about school?
education
What are you wearing on your feet?
socks and chipped toe nail polish
What instant messaging service do you use?
AIM, tagged.
What is your favorite color?
green, white/black.
What is your screen name?
X The Big Emptyx
What does your screen name mean?
stp song
What is your most used away message?
Catchin zzZzz's
What is your favorite website?
Youtube
What is your favorite shoe brand?
nike, coach
What do you wear more; jeans or shorts?
Jeans
What is the last movie watched?
Death Race
What song do you currently hear?
Aesop Rock
T.h.e. W.h.y.s
Why are you taking this survey?
i fucking felt like it shit.
Why do you have a myspace?
of course
Why does basically half the world have a myspace?
half of us have nothing better to do, and the other half already feel loved enough not to get one.
Why did you pick your myspace user name?
its my saying
Why do we have to go to school?
to get by
Why did you take this particular survey?
cause i like thinking about the past and seeing how much ive grown
Why are your best friends your best friends?
cause they have been there through thick and thin. seen me at my worst. ive been fucked up towards them and they still stood by my side since they knew i could and should be better to them. And now hopefully i am and they are still here today. they put out their hand when i asked for help, they gave me smiles when i was frownin. they walked in the door when the rest of the world walked out.
Why is wood brown?
its made of molecules poop..fuck if i know
T.h.e. W.h.e.n.s
When did you make this myspace?
you mean live journal? years ago
When did everyone become obsessed with myspace?
a while ago
When did you start school?
i didnt start school yet, i start in spring
When did you last go to the mall?
a week or two ago
When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
before christmas
When were you last at school?
oh jeez.. probably like june
When did you last see your dad?
couple days ago
When did you last burn a candle?
the other night
Enjoy this survey I have decided to do instead of sleep. Hope all who still read this are well.
4 YEARS AGO
How old were you? : 14
What school year were you in? : 9th grade
Where did you go to school? : Garfield
Where did you work? : self employed
Where did you live? : Seattle
Where did you hang out? : My house, Downtown, Queen Anne, Northend, Central District
How was your hair style? : long curly, or straightened, up in pigtails.
Did you wear braces? : nope
Did you wear glasses? : Nope
Who was your best friend : Molly, Katie, Steffie, emily
Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend? : Kris... Dear god.
Who was your celebrity crush? : Lead singer of Incubus
Who was your non-celeb crush? : fuck idk, probably one of the upper class men.
How many piercings did you have? : ears, cartilage.
How many tattoos did you have? : none yet
What was your worst fear? : being fat, having no friends, not being accepted.
Had you smoked a cigarette yet? : yes
Had you gotten drunk or high yet? : yes, every day.
Had you driven yet : yes.
Had you been to a real party yet? : yes
Had your heart been broken? : meh i thought so at the time
What was your style? : oh god, well.. Fish nets, home made band t-shirts & skirts, dark make up, dock martins up to my knees, and big earrings.
Did you Play any sports? : Lacrosse
What kind of Music did you listen to (I.E. Bands/Genres)? : mainly rock and hip hop. incubus, alice in chains, mad season, stone temple pilots, tupac
NOW
How old are you? : 18, coming up on 19
Where do you go to school? : Seattle Central Community College
Where do you work? : Starbucks & See's Candies
Where do you live? : Seattle
Where do you hang out? : My house, pool halls, meetings, denny's, at my work, at my boyfriend's house.
How is your hair style? shoulder length, usually curly or wavey. its up a lot since i work.
Do you have braces? : nope
Do you wear glasses? : none.
Who are/is your best friend/s? : Katie, Molly, Jeff, Teal, Ali, James, Lyrics
Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend? : James, (and he doesn't know it yet, or atleast i haven't told him, but i love him)
Who is your celebrity crush? : Tyrese, the main guy in the transporter movies
Who is your regular-person crush? : james
How many tattoos do you have? : I have 3. An eight behind my right ear. The flower off the stone temple pilots cd Shangri La Dee Da that I promissed myself i'd get when I was 14. And my back peace which is my astrological symbols and 2 locks locked together which represents undying loyalty.
How many piercings do you have? : Ears, Cartilage. had my belly button but i took it out when i got sober.
What is your biggest fear? : not living out my dreams, not being sucessful, not figuring out my place in the world, not falling in love (although i think i might be and that scares me for some reason), growing up
Have you smoked a cigarette yet? : yes
Have you gotten high yet? : yes
Have you driven yet : yes
Have you been to a real party yet? : Yes many
Has your heart been broken? : Yepp.
What's your style? : its a mix and mash of my different styles over the years. skater/hippie/hiphop/not givin a fuck style comprised of boots,nikes, fitted jackets, scarfs, lite natural looking makeup and a smile which i didnt wear often.
Music? : Hip hop, rap, rock, reggae, blues, jazz, hippie, alturnative
RED
1. Are you mad at someone? Naw
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper? not sure
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? i threw a cigarette at tyler the other night
4. Does your face turn red when you're angry? only when im nervous or embarassed.
5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell/scream? depends on why im mad. i try and say the serenity prayer and calm down before i combat a situation.
ORANGE
1. Has anyone ever thrown you a suprise party? yes brittany through me a surprise coming back from guatemala party which was tight.
2. Are you easily excited? yes
3. What event is coming up that your most excited about? not sure
4. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought? pay my house off and buy it so i could always live here.
5. If you could have anything right now what would it be? my health, sanity and for james to be here to cuddle me to sleep..
YELLOW
1.Name? Katherine
2. Where were you born? Seattle
3. Whats your main goal in life? helping people, selling my art, lacrosse, making something inspiring. Being able to speak spanish would be cool too. travel the world, make a difference.
4. Do you want to have children? I'm not even gonna think about that yet.
5. How do you want to die? I wanna be really fucking happy. I wanna be in love. I wanna be in a good state of life. I don't wanna owe anyone anything except my love to them. I wanna be healthy, I don't wanna see my body whithering away. I want my children and Husband to be well off and happy. I dont want to be killed/die in Revenge, Hate or Anger. If all or most of these things are complete, it is fine with me.
I kept this the same.
I want to die with a smile on my face and love in my heart. Hopefully not in pain, but hey its not my choice is it.
GREEN
do you believe in...
1. Gay Marriage? Yes.
2. Lowering the drinking age? Not sure. Depends.
3. Capital Punishment? No
4. Abortion? Yes, I believe in choice.
5. Recycling? Yes, be good to our earth.
BLUE
1. What was your latest dream? I have reoccuring Zombie Dreams. They involve people i used to know, people I did drugs with all over in places i did drugs and what not. I started getting them when i first got sober. I think it has something to do with myself when i did drugs.. yeah.
2. Which of your friends do you dream about the most? jeff
3. Have any of your dreams come true? not necessarily true but they have hidden messages that my mind encodes in there that I need to figure out. So in a sense yes I guess that partially come true.
4. Do you usually remeber your dreams? I am able to now, not always but most of the time. Before I got sober I wasn't.
5. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had? Probably one Zombie dream that i woke up sweating and screaming from, or a dream about my family I had a couple months ago.
PURPLE
1. do u like the color purple? yea I guess.
2. do you have a bf/gf? Yes
3. Do you have a crush? Yes on my boyfriend
4. Who is the best "hugger"? Probably my boyfriend, big Matt, or bobby.
5. Do you believe in love at first sight? towards shoes for sure. maybe not so much with people.
Who's in the house with you? Mom, brother, and my cats.
Who was the last person to IM you? my friend david.
Who are you thinking about now? my brothers
Who did you last talk to on the phone? jeff
Who's house did you last go to? Jeffs
Who do you sit next to in you 2nd period class? I'm not in class for this quater
Who is your favorite teacher? Mrs Hungate-Hawk or Livingston
Who's birthday is next? Katies
Who was the last person you told you love them? My mommy. :)
Who do you wish you were with right now? James..
Who gets on your nerves the most from your schoo? ?
Who do you hope will take this survey? i don't care, no one probably will or even read this. ill probably stumble across this like 4 years from now and do it again for shits and giggles.
T.h.e. W.h.e.r.e.s.
Where do you go to school?
Seattle Central
Where is your phone?
On the desk.
Where are your parents?
mom's in bed, brother is in the kitchen
Where do you sleep?
In my bed.
Where do you shop the most?
35th north
Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
35th north
Where did you last take a car ride to?
To an AA meeting
Where in your house are you?
My bed room
Where did you get this survey?
my old entries in my livejournal
Where did you first hear about myspace?
I guess from adrienne and kessiah a couple years ago
T.h.e. W.h.a.t.s
What was the last thing you ate?
donut and reeses m&m's
What was the last thing you drank?
gatorade and coffee
What color pants are you wearing?
Gray
What kind of cell phone do you have?
Cingular samsung slider phone
What is the closest item near you that is blue?
my bed sheets
What do you like about school?
education
What are you wearing on your feet?
socks and chipped toe nail polish
What instant messaging service do you use?
AIM, tagged.
What is your favorite color?
green, white/black.
What is your screen name?
X The Big Emptyx
What does your screen name mean?
stp song
What is your most used away message?
Catchin zzZzz's
What is your favorite website?
Youtube
What is your favorite shoe brand?
nike, coach
What do you wear more; jeans or shorts?
Jeans
What is the last movie watched?
Death Race
What song do you currently hear?
Aesop Rock
T.h.e. W.h.y.s
Why are you taking this survey?
i fucking felt like it shit.
Why do you have a myspace?
of course
Why does basically half the world have a myspace?
half of us have nothing better to do, and the other half already feel loved enough not to get one.
Why did you pick your myspace user name?
its my saying
Why do we have to go to school?
to get by
Why did you take this particular survey?
cause i like thinking about the past and seeing how much ive grown
Why are your best friends your best friends?
cause they have been there through thick and thin. seen me at my worst. ive been fucked up towards them and they still stood by my side since they knew i could and should be better to them. And now hopefully i am and they are still here today. they put out their hand when i asked for help, they gave me smiles when i was frownin. they walked in the door when the rest of the world walked out.
Why is wood brown?
its made of molecules poop..fuck if i know
T.h.e. W.h.e.n.s
When did you make this myspace?
you mean live journal? years ago
When did everyone become obsessed with myspace?
a while ago
When did you start school?
i didnt start school yet, i start in spring
When did you last go to the mall?
a week or two ago
When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
before christmas
When were you last at school?
oh jeez.. probably like june
When did you last see your dad?
couple days ago
When did you last burn a candle?
the other night