l/raito: it's still a death-- wait, no
This is for ikel89, whose definition of the pairing is basically creeps, sex and Shakespeare.
The initial version of this mix only had one of those things, and it was vaguely Shakespearean angst in spades, mostly because I intended to keep it canon. When I realized that was not working, the reworking inevitably brought AU with it, and the AU fic that gives me the best, the most mindblowing, the most visceral feelings about Death Note is Tithe to Hell by ningenfucker (and a separate thank you to antistar_e who is provider of all recs golden!) So this is respectfully dedicated to the fic, as well -- which, if you're clicking through, heed the rating (!) and read responsibly.
The quotes used in the mix are all from the aforementioned fic (all safe safe/gen), and the internal narrative follows the plot of it, as well, i.e. AU starting after the Yotsuba arc in canon -- hopefully it'll still make sense? I'm good with just hoping rn!
Curiously enough, the "theme" song remained the same, and I cannot stress enough how much I love it; however, in a complete perk-bonus surprise, a lot of my favourite bands basically showed up and said, here, have this song, it totally fits what you're doing. Suffice it to say, there was much yay.
Last but not least - the gorgeous artwork I used for cover sadly came to me unattributed and reverse pic searches didn't help -- so please, if you know the source, let me know!
Oh, and the creepy crosses are the individual listen/download links. I hope they are appropriately creepy, darling ♥
Prologue
THE SWORD AND THE PEN †
Regina Spektor
Don't let me out of this kiss
Don't let me say what I say
The things that scare us today
what if they happen someday
Don't let me out of your arms
For now
What if the sword kills the pen
What if the god kills the man
And if he does it with love
Well then it's death from above
And death from above is still a death
I don't want to live without you
I don't want to live without you
So what if nothing is safe
So what if no one is saved
No matter how sweet
No matter how brave
What if each to his own lonely grave
Act I
“As to that,” L says. “My calculations are roughly at 90% that the rules are false.”
And he rips a page out of the Death Note.
Light actually screams in rage, but he is drowned out by the horrified outbursts all around him.
“Everyone,” says L when the alarm has subsided. “I apologize.”
“I thought you were erring on the side of caution!” Light hisses.
“Oh.” L blinks. “There must naturally sometimes be exceptions.”
*
L refuses to let Light go.
ONE OF A KIND †
Placebo
On top of the world you get nothing done,
Talk is cold and burns like the sun,
Can't you see these skies are breaking?
Cause on top of the world is where I'm from..
I'm in a race and it's killing time,
I don't need yours I'll keep it with mine
Can't you see these skies are breaking?
Cause I'm in a race and I'm doing fine
HANDCUFFS †
Brand New
I’d arrest you if I had handcuffs
I’d arrest you if I had the time
I’d throw you down in the backseat
As if you'd committed a terrible crime
I'd break in a town's worth of houses
And rob whole families blind
I’d do it to you like you'd do it to me
If you knew you would get away fine
It’s hard to be the better man
When you forget you’re trying
It’s hard to be the better man
When you’re still lying
You’re still lying
I WOULD HURT A FLY †
Built to Spill
I can't get that sound you make out of my head
I can't even figure out what's making it
It feels like fingernails across the moon
Or do you rub your wings together?
There's a mean bone in my body
It's connected to the problems that I won't take for an answer
and I won't take that from you
YOU WANNA FREAK OUT †
My Morning Jacket
Play it safe, play it cool
If you ever emote, you're playing the fool
Is that the way you think it is?
You can't get yours if he ain't getting his, c'mon
You know how you are
IDYLLS OF THE KING †
Mountain Goats
How long will we ride this wave out?
How long 'til someone caves under the pressure?
My dreams are haunted by armies armies of ghosts
Faces too blurry to make out
Numbers far too high to measure
Your face like a vision straight out of Holly Hobby
Late light drizzling through your hair
Your eyes twin volcanoes
Bad ideas dancing around in there
All all of them, all of them
SUGAR †
The Horrible Crowes
I guess you need a little sugar
Cause you always wander around
How would you like a little fancy
Whenever you feel a little inside out
I know, I know you get lonely at night
Nobody knows you like I do
You said no
That's not the way it goes
If Raito-kun is Kira…
“I’m not Kira,” Light says tiredly.
“Because you’re not a murdering sociopath,” says L with a smile, “or because you don’t wish to give me the satisfaction of being right?”
“I don’t think you’re a game,” Light says.
“I don’t believe you,” L says sadly.
Act II
“Just trust me,” Light says. He starts to tilt L’s chin up. “L.”
L’s eyes snap open.
He jerks back and bumps awkwardly into the ledge. The chain between them clatters against the concrete. L’s gaze is suddenly harsh and alert.
“You are either lying to me now,” he says coldly, “or you are lying to yourself.” He untangles the chain and backs up, bringing it to full length between them. “I can believe in one version or the other, but while the lie exists, I cannot trust it.”
“Then what?” Light snaps. “Which would you rather see, L? The Yagami Light you don’t have to despise, or Kira?”
L studies him. “If you were being completely honest with both of us, Yagami-kun,” he says after a moment, “you wouldn’t have to ask.”
POTION APPROACHING †
Arctic Monkeys
We embellish the banks of our bloodstreams,
And threw caution to the colourful
Then we fell asleep in the car,
Until the bumps woke me up in your grip
And the tide took me to your mouth
It’s them that put me inside the reminder
That yours is the only ocean
That I wanna swing from
Yours is the only ocean,
That I wanna hang on
I AM KORESH †
The Indelicates
I’m the first cause, the prime mover
The watchmaker, the absolute proof and
I want you, I need you
Open your hearts, I will lead you where I’m going
Where I am going
I am Koresh, I am Shiva
I am Buddha, I’ll make you a believer
I am Jesus, I am Mohammed
I am the unbroken circle, dammit
Give your all and nothing less
So come to thy god’s caress
CRIPPLE AND THE STARFISH †
Antony and the Johnsons
It's true I always wanted love to be hurtful
And it's true I always wanted love to be
Filled with pain and bruises
I am very happy
So please hit me
I am very happy
So please hurt me
YOUR JOY IS MY LOW †
IAMX
You lie, you lie to spare my life
You needed it, he tasted you inside out
FOR REAL †
Okkervil River
Sometimes the blood from real cuts
Feels real nice, when it's really mine
And if you want it to be real
Come over for one night
And we can really, really climb
'Cause there's nothing quite like the blinding light
That curtains cast aside
And no attempt is made to explain away
The things that really, really, really, really, really are behind
You can't hide
You can't hide
ON THE NIGHT THAT MY LOVE BROKE THROUGH †
Cold War Kids
On the night that my love broke through
Revelations that came unglued
On the night that my love broke through
Cell doors were opened, guards stepped out the way
Prisoners got one acre of land and one year's pay
Flowers long since dead stiffened at the neck
Colors came back in green and yellow and in red
SECONDS DRAG †
Trent Reznor & Atticus Ross
[instrumental]
His hands won’t stop shaking. He clenches his fist open and shut. He can’t write L’s name down in the Death Note if he can’t hold the pen.
Act III
He wants the Death Note. He wants L.
Slowly L raises his arm. He encircles L’s wrist with his fingers, where the handcuff was, around the mark it has rubbed into his skin after days, weeks, nights. The message is clear.
WHY ARE YOU LOOKING GRAVE †
Mew
Why are you looking grave?
Are you thinking of something to say?
Why are you sitting there?
Are you hoping that someone will stare?
Your mouth is hiding
You've got smiling eyes
Softly dividing
What they see in your face
From what you feel like inside
Your mouth is hiding
You've got joyless eyes
Softly contriving
All the terrible things
That shook up our hearts enough
SURPRISE ICE †
Kings of Convenience
When past sometimes takes you with soft hands
Forcelessly pulls you to your chair
Hides you away from these half days
Sunless at the end of the year
The air is like a knife cutting through you
A room in the house is always warm
Stretched out on the bathroom floor thinking
Of fair days your future may hold
Love comes like surprise ice on the water
Love comes at dawn
I'M NOT DONE (R/D REMIX) †
Fever Ray
Who is the Alpha
What is made of cloth
How do you say you're sorry
And there's nothing to be afraid of
Is it dark already
How light is a light
Do you laugh while screaming
Is it cold outside
WELL, BENJAMIN †
Shearwater
Cause I love you for the things you see
And I don't mind if you see me
With my wrinkled hands and glazed eyes
As obscene
You're right in ways that you don't know
And you're untouched by the undertow
All that speed and anger burns your body clean
And I love you for the things you feel
So thoroughly that they turn real
As the sea comes rushing toward us
Dark and cold
THE MODERN LEPER †
Frightened Rabbit
Yeah, this is how the modern stay scared
So I cut out all the good stuff
Yeah, I cut off my foot to spite my leg
Well, is that you in front of me?
Coming back for even more of exactly the same
You must be a masochist to love a modern leper
On his last leg
And you are not ill
And I'm not dead
Doesn't that make us the perfect pair?
Just you and me
We'll start again
“Why on earth would I want to do that?” he says. “They’d almost certainly want to put you back in the handcuffs.”
Light stares at him for so long L’s expression changes from confusion to concern.
Then he unthinkingly dips a long finger in the goo sliding down the door, emerges with a strawberry, and slips it into his mouth.
Epilogue
YOU ARE MINE †
Mutemath
There are objects of affection
That can mesmerize the soul
There is always one addiction
That just cannot be controlled
.zip
The initial version of this mix only had one of those things, and it was vaguely Shakespearean angst in spades, mostly because I intended to keep it canon. When I realized that was not working, the reworking inevitably brought AU with it, and the AU fic that gives me the best, the most mindblowing, the most visceral feelings about Death Note is Tithe to Hell by ningenfucker (and a separate thank you to antistar_e who is provider of all recs golden!) So this is respectfully dedicated to the fic, as well -- which, if you're clicking through, heed the rating (!) and read responsibly.
The quotes used in the mix are all from the aforementioned fic (all safe safe/gen), and the internal narrative follows the plot of it, as well, i.e. AU starting after the Yotsuba arc in canon -- hopefully it'll still make sense? I'm good with just hoping rn!
Curiously enough, the "theme" song remained the same, and I cannot stress enough how much I love it; however, in a complete perk-bonus surprise, a lot of my favourite bands basically showed up and said, here, have this song, it totally fits what you're doing. Suffice it to say, there was much yay.
Last but not least - the gorgeous artwork I used for cover sadly came to me unattributed and reverse pic searches didn't help -- so please, if you know the source, let me know!
Oh, and the creepy crosses are the individual listen/download links. I hope they are appropriately creepy, darling ♥
Prologue
THE SWORD AND THE PEN †
Regina Spektor
Don't let me out of this kiss
Don't let me say what I say
The things that scare us today
what if they happen someday
Don't let me out of your arms
For now
What if the sword kills the pen
What if the god kills the man
And if he does it with love
Well then it's death from above
And death from above is still a death
I don't want to live without you
I don't want to live without you
So what if nothing is safe
So what if no one is saved
No matter how sweet
No matter how brave
What if each to his own lonely grave
Act I
“As to that,” L says. “My calculations are roughly at 90% that the rules are false.”
And he rips a page out of the Death Note.
Light actually screams in rage, but he is drowned out by the horrified outbursts all around him.
“Everyone,” says L when the alarm has subsided. “I apologize.”
“I thought you were erring on the side of caution!” Light hisses.
“Oh.” L blinks. “There must naturally sometimes be exceptions.”
*
L refuses to let Light go.
ONE OF A KIND †
Placebo
On top of the world you get nothing done,
Talk is cold and burns like the sun,
Can't you see these skies are breaking?
Cause on top of the world is where I'm from..
I'm in a race and it's killing time,
I don't need yours I'll keep it with mine
Can't you see these skies are breaking?
Cause I'm in a race and I'm doing fine
HANDCUFFS †
Brand New
I’d arrest you if I had handcuffs
I’d arrest you if I had the time
I’d throw you down in the backseat
As if you'd committed a terrible crime
I'd break in a town's worth of houses
And rob whole families blind
I’d do it to you like you'd do it to me
If you knew you would get away fine
It’s hard to be the better man
When you forget you’re trying
It’s hard to be the better man
When you’re still lying
You’re still lying
I WOULD HURT A FLY †
Built to Spill
I can't get that sound you make out of my head
I can't even figure out what's making it
It feels like fingernails across the moon
Or do you rub your wings together?
There's a mean bone in my body
It's connected to the problems that I won't take for an answer
and I won't take that from you
YOU WANNA FREAK OUT †
My Morning Jacket
Play it safe, play it cool
If you ever emote, you're playing the fool
Is that the way you think it is?
You can't get yours if he ain't getting his, c'mon
You know how you are
IDYLLS OF THE KING †
Mountain Goats
How long will we ride this wave out?
How long 'til someone caves under the pressure?
My dreams are haunted by armies armies of ghosts
Faces too blurry to make out
Numbers far too high to measure
Your face like a vision straight out of Holly Hobby
Late light drizzling through your hair
Your eyes twin volcanoes
Bad ideas dancing around in there
All all of them, all of them
SUGAR †
The Horrible Crowes
I guess you need a little sugar
Cause you always wander around
How would you like a little fancy
Whenever you feel a little inside out
I know, I know you get lonely at night
Nobody knows you like I do
You said no
That's not the way it goes
If Raito-kun is Kira…
“I’m not Kira,” Light says tiredly.
“Because you’re not a murdering sociopath,” says L with a smile, “or because you don’t wish to give me the satisfaction of being right?”
“I don’t think you’re a game,” Light says.
“I don’t believe you,” L says sadly.
Act II
“Just trust me,” Light says. He starts to tilt L’s chin up. “L.”
L’s eyes snap open.
He jerks back and bumps awkwardly into the ledge. The chain between them clatters against the concrete. L’s gaze is suddenly harsh and alert.
“You are either lying to me now,” he says coldly, “or you are lying to yourself.” He untangles the chain and backs up, bringing it to full length between them. “I can believe in one version or the other, but while the lie exists, I cannot trust it.”
“Then what?” Light snaps. “Which would you rather see, L? The Yagami Light you don’t have to despise, or Kira?”
L studies him. “If you were being completely honest with both of us, Yagami-kun,” he says after a moment, “you wouldn’t have to ask.”
POTION APPROACHING †
Arctic Monkeys
We embellish the banks of our bloodstreams,
And threw caution to the colourful
Then we fell asleep in the car,
Until the bumps woke me up in your grip
And the tide took me to your mouth
It’s them that put me inside the reminder
That yours is the only ocean
That I wanna swing from
Yours is the only ocean,
That I wanna hang on
I AM KORESH †
The Indelicates
I’m the first cause, the prime mover
The watchmaker, the absolute proof and
I want you, I need you
Open your hearts, I will lead you where I’m going
Where I am going
I am Koresh, I am Shiva
I am Buddha, I’ll make you a believer
I am Jesus, I am Mohammed
I am the unbroken circle, dammit
Give your all and nothing less
So come to thy god’s caress
CRIPPLE AND THE STARFISH †
Antony and the Johnsons
It's true I always wanted love to be hurtful
And it's true I always wanted love to be
Filled with pain and bruises
I am very happy
So please hit me
I am very happy
So please hurt me
YOUR JOY IS MY LOW †
IAMX
You lie, you lie to spare my life
You needed it, he tasted you inside out
FOR REAL †
Okkervil River
Sometimes the blood from real cuts
Feels real nice, when it's really mine
And if you want it to be real
Come over for one night
And we can really, really climb
'Cause there's nothing quite like the blinding light
That curtains cast aside
And no attempt is made to explain away
The things that really, really, really, really, really are behind
You can't hide
You can't hide
ON THE NIGHT THAT MY LOVE BROKE THROUGH †
Cold War Kids
On the night that my love broke through
Revelations that came unglued
On the night that my love broke through
Cell doors were opened, guards stepped out the way
Prisoners got one acre of land and one year's pay
Flowers long since dead stiffened at the neck
Colors came back in green and yellow and in red
SECONDS DRAG †
Trent Reznor & Atticus Ross
[instrumental]
His hands won’t stop shaking. He clenches his fist open and shut. He can’t write L’s name down in the Death Note if he can’t hold the pen.
Act III
He wants the Death Note. He wants L.
Slowly L raises his arm. He encircles L’s wrist with his fingers, where the handcuff was, around the mark it has rubbed into his skin after days, weeks, nights. The message is clear.
WHY ARE YOU LOOKING GRAVE †
Mew
Why are you looking grave?
Are you thinking of something to say?
Why are you sitting there?
Are you hoping that someone will stare?
Your mouth is hiding
You've got smiling eyes
Softly dividing
What they see in your face
From what you feel like inside
Your mouth is hiding
You've got joyless eyes
Softly contriving
All the terrible things
That shook up our hearts enough
SURPRISE ICE †
Kings of Convenience
When past sometimes takes you with soft hands
Forcelessly pulls you to your chair
Hides you away from these half days
Sunless at the end of the year
The air is like a knife cutting through you
A room in the house is always warm
Stretched out on the bathroom floor thinking
Of fair days your future may hold
Love comes like surprise ice on the water
Love comes at dawn
I'M NOT DONE (R/D REMIX) †
Fever Ray
Who is the Alpha
What is made of cloth
How do you say you're sorry
And there's nothing to be afraid of
Is it dark already
How light is a light
Do you laugh while screaming
Is it cold outside
WELL, BENJAMIN †
Shearwater
Cause I love you for the things you see
And I don't mind if you see me
With my wrinkled hands and glazed eyes
As obscene
You're right in ways that you don't know
And you're untouched by the undertow
All that speed and anger burns your body clean
And I love you for the things you feel
So thoroughly that they turn real
As the sea comes rushing toward us
Dark and cold
THE MODERN LEPER †
Frightened Rabbit
Yeah, this is how the modern stay scared
So I cut out all the good stuff
Yeah, I cut off my foot to spite my leg
Well, is that you in front of me?
Coming back for even more of exactly the same
You must be a masochist to love a modern leper
On his last leg
And you are not ill
And I'm not dead
Doesn't that make us the perfect pair?
Just you and me
We'll start again
“Why on earth would I want to do that?” he says. “They’d almost certainly want to put you back in the handcuffs.”
Light stares at him for so long L’s expression changes from confusion to concern.
Then he unthinkingly dips a long finger in the goo sliding down the door, emerges with a strawberry, and slips it into his mouth.
Epilogue
YOU ARE MINE †
Mutemath
There are objects of affection
That can mesmerize the soul
There is always one addiction
That just cannot be controlled
.zip