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I'm almost positive that this is my final straw. I already cried twice today before this even happened. Once realizing that I have lost all my friends, and then again about some fucking snowmobile that I saw that my dad owns. I come home to a rude letter written to me by my step dad, about issues he has I thought were resolved weeks ago. Calling me a cry baby, telling me I'm selfish, that I need to be a big girl, and since I cried the last time about him yelling at me, he wrote the letter so he "wouldn't scare me"(so fucking kind of him). I feel like I have no safe place. No one person to talk to. Is this all my fault? I give up. I have nothing. What else am I supposed to give before things turn around? I don't think I'm a bad person. I've made mistakes, but I'm the first one to admit them, and the last one to be punishing me for them. I want to lay down and die.