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god, ive been getting migraines a lot lately. i spent the entire day yesterday throwing up and crying because my head hurt so bad. gay joe went and bought me some medicine and after A LOT of it i felt better by like 9pm. i feel like i totally wasted the day. i really should go see a doctor. i know when im getting them because my body feels really weird, like my heart beats faster and i get a tension headache first. i always try to take something before they can progress but they always do anyway. so im thinking i need to take something a little more powerful. the doctor at the er ran tests on me last time i was there and told me that i get stress related migraines but not having insurance really sucks, i cant see the doctor or get a prescription without it costing me a ton of money. since i only work part time i cant get insurance through work even though i always work WAY more than my scheduled 25 hours a week. i make too much money for state funded stuff but too little to get any other insurance. lame lame lame.
ive been really busy lately. between work and school all i really have time to do is come home shower/eat/sleep. i still try to find the time to go out and do things but that usually means i end up getting like 4 hours of sleep that night and that just doesnt really work too well for me. ive actually been quite boring and moody lately. ive been really stressed. ive taken a TON of extra hours this month because i need the money to pay off some stuff and i wish people would help out a little more around here. i dont like working ALLLLLL day long and then coming home and having to clean. ive been kind of a bitch about it lately but i really dont care, im sick of cleaning up after everyone. i know im a little obsessive about cleaning and all but i dont expect the place to be spotless it but im not a maid...i just wish they'd clean up their beer bottles and random shit they leave in the living room. the kitchen floor is hideous right now but i refuse to touch it since my boyfriend promised he's sweep and mop...yeah that was two days ago. i just dont get whats so hard about picking up after yourself or wiping the counters down if you make a mess on them. argh as you can tell this is becoming kind of an issue with me. just like i asked them to mow the lawn because the landlord called and bitched at me while i was at work and i figured the least they can do is mow our lawn that takes no more than 10 minutes to do since i clean this place constantly. i get home from work and its still not done and they're drunk. sweeeeet. so i kind of flipped shit about it. but seriously its getting ridiculous. the part that really makes me the most angry is when kari and i lived here this place always looked nice, its a nice apartment and when ryan and adam got evicted it was no big deal for me to let them move in and kari had no problem with keeping her name on the lease while they live here as long as it "stays nice like we kept it", not that i even feel like they owe me something, i just wish they'd be considerate enough to clean up after themselves. god it fucking annoys me to no end. i will say joe is excellent about cleaning up so atleast its not just me cleaning up after all three of them. and adam did go out and mow the lawn yesterday but i really wonder if either of them would had if i didnt get so pissed. argh it really fucking bothers me.
another issue im having with living with them is they put the playstation in the living room and ryan and adam play it like 90% of the time they're home so no one can ever watch tv. joe and i dont have cable in our bedrooms because the guy couldnt do it without the landlord's permission to drill into the walls. so i can never EVER watch tv. i dont feel like it right that joe or i should even have to pay our share of the fucking cable bill. the only tv i EVER get to watch is when one of them has a show they want to watch so i get to watch it with them. and most of the time if you ask to watch tv they pretty much tell you to go fuck yourself. argh. the night brad, jen, and brad came over we all asked them if we could watch tv in the living room since we were all trying to hang out and they made such a big deal of it and continued to play. so it was kinda of embarassing honestly, they were so rude. adam has told joe and i numerous times that he;d put it in his room and he never does. and i just think thats really lame. i think ive watched like three hours AT most of tv this month. all of it being while they were at work or school. sweet so i should spend money on something i dont ever get to use?! the the fuck.
i know this has turned into my bitching about everything and living with them isnt that terrible. i just think i was too nice about it at the beginning and now they take advantage of it. it honestly does make me really mad though.
ive had too much on my mind lately. ive tried to talk to ryan about it. i just cant. its like i dont even really understand how i feel. not about him or anything. just a lot of other things. i just feel really strange. i cant even explain how it feels. just kind of melancholy. i probably just come off as bitchy, i dont try to.
ive been really busy lately. between work and school all i really have time to do is come home shower/eat/sleep. i still try to find the time to go out and do things but that usually means i end up getting like 4 hours of sleep that night and that just doesnt really work too well for me. ive actually been quite boring and moody lately. ive been really stressed. ive taken a TON of extra hours this month because i need the money to pay off some stuff and i wish people would help out a little more around here. i dont like working ALLLLLL day long and then coming home and having to clean. ive been kind of a bitch about it lately but i really dont care, im sick of cleaning up after everyone. i know im a little obsessive about cleaning and all but i dont expect the place to be spotless it but im not a maid...i just wish they'd clean up their beer bottles and random shit they leave in the living room. the kitchen floor is hideous right now but i refuse to touch it since my boyfriend promised he's sweep and mop...yeah that was two days ago. i just dont get whats so hard about picking up after yourself or wiping the counters down if you make a mess on them. argh as you can tell this is becoming kind of an issue with me. just like i asked them to mow the lawn because the landlord called and bitched at me while i was at work and i figured the least they can do is mow our lawn that takes no more than 10 minutes to do since i clean this place constantly. i get home from work and its still not done and they're drunk. sweeeeet. so i kind of flipped shit about it. but seriously its getting ridiculous. the part that really makes me the most angry is when kari and i lived here this place always looked nice, its a nice apartment and when ryan and adam got evicted it was no big deal for me to let them move in and kari had no problem with keeping her name on the lease while they live here as long as it "stays nice like we kept it", not that i even feel like they owe me something, i just wish they'd be considerate enough to clean up after themselves. god it fucking annoys me to no end. i will say joe is excellent about cleaning up so atleast its not just me cleaning up after all three of them. and adam did go out and mow the lawn yesterday but i really wonder if either of them would had if i didnt get so pissed. argh it really fucking bothers me.
another issue im having with living with them is they put the playstation in the living room and ryan and adam play it like 90% of the time they're home so no one can ever watch tv. joe and i dont have cable in our bedrooms because the guy couldnt do it without the landlord's permission to drill into the walls. so i can never EVER watch tv. i dont feel like it right that joe or i should even have to pay our share of the fucking cable bill. the only tv i EVER get to watch is when one of them has a show they want to watch so i get to watch it with them. and most of the time if you ask to watch tv they pretty much tell you to go fuck yourself. argh. the night brad, jen, and brad came over we all asked them if we could watch tv in the living room since we were all trying to hang out and they made such a big deal of it and continued to play. so it was kinda of embarassing honestly, they were so rude. adam has told joe and i numerous times that he;d put it in his room and he never does. and i just think thats really lame. i think ive watched like three hours AT most of tv this month. all of it being while they were at work or school. sweet so i should spend money on something i dont ever get to use?! the the fuck.
i know this has turned into my bitching about everything and living with them isnt that terrible. i just think i was too nice about it at the beginning and now they take advantage of it. it honestly does make me really mad though.
ive had too much on my mind lately. ive tried to talk to ryan about it. i just cant. its like i dont even really understand how i feel. not about him or anything. just a lot of other things. i just feel really strange. i cant even explain how it feels. just kind of melancholy. i probably just come off as bitchy, i dont try to.