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joe invited me over last night. i got there and he and i had a huge falling out. i dont even know what i did, he was in a bad mood and just started laying into me. i just sat there and let him scream at me and say the most horrible things anyone has ever said to me. all i could do is cry. it hurts so much to hear those things coming from him. he has absolutely broken my heart. no one has ever hurt me as much as he did last night. nothing that has ever happened between us has effected me the way last night did. i was always able to look past our fights because i love him so much but not after this. if he really meant all the things he said then it makes me sick that someone thinks those things of me. i dont understand how someone ive been so good to and loved unconditionally through everything can do this to me. what is wrong with me? what have i done to him to make him hate me so much. i was a good girlfriend. i did everything just to make him happy. all ive ever wanted was for him to be happy. i cant handle this anymore. it hurts too much.