a nap. a shower. some pills. im good to go.
an update, i guess...
school is going. i really havent had any homework and ive only taken one test. i did well on it too. so i guess school is going well.
im growing to hate my job more than anything in the world. i need the money though and with my school schedule i cant really get another job. once this semester is over you better believe im getting a new job. fuuuuuck that place.
joe is moving in with me. well he pretty much already is moved in. a guy from his work is moving his bed tomorrow so we dont have to sleep on the futon anymore. and now we can afford internet, cable, and a house phone...we're getting them on the 19th!!!!!!!!! no more 3,5,9, and 68.we have a puppy now too. hes very cute and all that but he pees on my stuff and it makes me mad. things with us have been great. its been a year, i really feel pretty solid about us. i think we've both given up on thinking we're ever REALLY going to break up. he is my heart. he really does make me very happy. i dont know what id do without him.
my sister is moving back here after this semester and going to oswego state, she hates her school. im so excited shes coming back. i miss her like fucking crazy and it sucks.
lately i miss my mom and dad a lot. i think everything is finally catching up with me. i just keep catching myself wishing things could be like they used to be. ive come to realize, and its weird its taken me this long, my mom and dad arent a phone call away. i think i tried to trick myself into thinking that way so i dont just completely break down. ive been walking around with knots in my stomach for weeks. i just really miss having a family. its so weird.
i dont know. i really havent seen many people lately and i think that sucks. ive seen frankie a few times. and i went and saw joe mama and gorham the other day. i keep missing katie and mick when they stop at the house. and i havent seen cheryl since i cant even remember when. and i wish martha still lived with meeeeee!!! fuck buffalo, it stole martha and my sister. my days are so fucking long that im too tired to do anything when i get home and i never see anyone! fuck it, im calling into work soon and having people over. I MISS MY FRIENDS!!!
unsolved mysteries is showing a thing about haunted houses and its scaring the shit out of me. i hate ghosts. i sleep with my tv on when im home alone because im scared the house is haunted. im the biggest baby, ever.
i dont want to go to my geology lab today. i hate it. i dont know anyone in the class and everyone else knows each other so no one talks to me. it makes me feel like im 12 years old. the class is three fucking hours too, yeah, awesome. the professor for it totally cool though and that makes me hate it a little less.
i realize i like the judester so much more now that i dont live with her. shes been really cool lately. she's paying half my car insurance for me. and she calls me randomly just to say hi and i think thats nice.
OH! keith gave me this like buddhist health thing when he moved out. you hang it on the wall and its supossed to bring you good health. but if it breaks you're supossed to get really sick or like die or something. when i got home last night it was laying in in pieces on my floor. what the fuuuuuuck!! i dont really believe in that stuff but im not going to lie, it weirds me out. i think im just bad luck.
done.
school is going. i really havent had any homework and ive only taken one test. i did well on it too. so i guess school is going well.
im growing to hate my job more than anything in the world. i need the money though and with my school schedule i cant really get another job. once this semester is over you better believe im getting a new job. fuuuuuck that place.
joe is moving in with me. well he pretty much already is moved in. a guy from his work is moving his bed tomorrow so we dont have to sleep on the futon anymore. and now we can afford internet, cable, and a house phone...we're getting them on the 19th!!!!!!!!! no more 3,5,9, and 68.we have a puppy now too. hes very cute and all that but he pees on my stuff and it makes me mad. things with us have been great. its been a year, i really feel pretty solid about us. i think we've both given up on thinking we're ever REALLY going to break up. he is my heart. he really does make me very happy. i dont know what id do without him.
my sister is moving back here after this semester and going to oswego state, she hates her school. im so excited shes coming back. i miss her like fucking crazy and it sucks.
lately i miss my mom and dad a lot. i think everything is finally catching up with me. i just keep catching myself wishing things could be like they used to be. ive come to realize, and its weird its taken me this long, my mom and dad arent a phone call away. i think i tried to trick myself into thinking that way so i dont just completely break down. ive been walking around with knots in my stomach for weeks. i just really miss having a family. its so weird.
i dont know. i really havent seen many people lately and i think that sucks. ive seen frankie a few times. and i went and saw joe mama and gorham the other day. i keep missing katie and mick when they stop at the house. and i havent seen cheryl since i cant even remember when. and i wish martha still lived with meeeeee!!! fuck buffalo, it stole martha and my sister. my days are so fucking long that im too tired to do anything when i get home and i never see anyone! fuck it, im calling into work soon and having people over. I MISS MY FRIENDS!!!
unsolved mysteries is showing a thing about haunted houses and its scaring the shit out of me. i hate ghosts. i sleep with my tv on when im home alone because im scared the house is haunted. im the biggest baby, ever.
i dont want to go to my geology lab today. i hate it. i dont know anyone in the class and everyone else knows each other so no one talks to me. it makes me feel like im 12 years old. the class is three fucking hours too, yeah, awesome. the professor for it totally cool though and that makes me hate it a little less.
i realize i like the judester so much more now that i dont live with her. shes been really cool lately. she's paying half my car insurance for me. and she calls me randomly just to say hi and i think thats nice.
OH! keith gave me this like buddhist health thing when he moved out. you hang it on the wall and its supossed to bring you good health. but if it breaks you're supossed to get really sick or like die or something. when i got home last night it was laying in in pieces on my floor. what the fuuuuuuck!! i dont really believe in that stuff but im not going to lie, it weirds me out. i think im just bad luck.
done.