icky sicky
well, i'm on my fourth day of a very very bad illness. i can barely swallow my own saliva and have large sores in the back of my throat. i went in to the doctor yesterday and he gave a quick look and ordered a throat culture and wrote a perscription for penicillin. they only tested for strep throat and that was negative. today is even worse and more painful. i called and bitched at them about the pain and the fact that MY FUCKING THROAT WAS CLOSING UP!!! so they reluctantly said that i could come by and they would see me. they took another look and realized that in one day the sores got twice as large and are spreading. so now they took a few more throat swab samples and drew some blood. they're testing for mono, throat chlamidia and some other things. i'm not happy. they also perscribed a different antibiotic, steroids and viccodin. i looove viccodin but i always use it sparingly. it tends to make me sleepy and gives me really wierd sex themed dreams that i can't tell are dreams when they happen. ...but they're fun. oh... and my mom is trying to get her paws on my viccodin. she asked for one earlier for "her shoulder". i've got to be careful and set some asside before they all disapear. she's letting me stay the night at her house, but my old room was redecorated and given to my brother while his old room has been made into storage. so i sleep on the couch.
also, i know that hyper-sweet is suffering from something simillar to my illness and i'm affraid that i may have given it to him or he to me. i don't know his medical insurance standing and i hope he can afford treatment. and if shad comes down with something he has no insurance. if it's chlamidia of the throat, i don't think he'll be to happy about it. even if it is curable. i'm also hoping i haven't given any of this to lovely. she takes a lot of expensive medication already and i'm not sure how healthy her immune system is. or maybe i got it from her when she visited almost a week ago. who the fuck knows.
and my manager at work has been replaced. this is not a good way to meet the new one. "hi, i've been extreemely ill and unable to work the last few days... nice to meet you!" but i do have a doctor's note. i need this job to pay for my new place.
being sick has put me in a state of self pity. i've been feeling so sorry for myself lately and having thoughts that something is out to get me. life seems to pile a lot of shit on me all at once. there are some things i'm able to accept, like my parents divorce. i knew it was coming for a long time and hoped it would have happened sooner. but for some reason i'm falling apart about getting sick. maybe it's cause it's happening directly to me and i'm hopeless against it. i can't fix it or work on it. it's just there and prevents me from doing so much that i need to get done. i just hope that the lab results tomorrow will determine what it is so i can get treated and get well.
also, i know that hyper-sweet is suffering from something simillar to my illness and i'm affraid that i may have given it to him or he to me. i don't know his medical insurance standing and i hope he can afford treatment. and if shad comes down with something he has no insurance. if it's chlamidia of the throat, i don't think he'll be to happy about it. even if it is curable. i'm also hoping i haven't given any of this to lovely. she takes a lot of expensive medication already and i'm not sure how healthy her immune system is. or maybe i got it from her when she visited almost a week ago. who the fuck knows.
and my manager at work has been replaced. this is not a good way to meet the new one. "hi, i've been extreemely ill and unable to work the last few days... nice to meet you!" but i do have a doctor's note. i need this job to pay for my new place.
being sick has put me in a state of self pity. i've been feeling so sorry for myself lately and having thoughts that something is out to get me. life seems to pile a lot of shit on me all at once. there are some things i'm able to accept, like my parents divorce. i knew it was coming for a long time and hoped it would have happened sooner. but for some reason i'm falling apart about getting sick. maybe it's cause it's happening directly to me and i'm hopeless against it. i can't fix it or work on it. it's just there and prevents me from doing so much that i need to get done. i just hope that the lab results tomorrow will determine what it is so i can get treated and get well.