tiiiired
Shit, another year done. I don't know what there really is to say about it.
Year started off by pushing me into the most emotional mess I've ever been by losing the first and only girl I've loved so far, and as a result turning me into a complete emotional fag who now enjoys romantic comedies something fierce. Got jerked around emotionally some more, and at the end of the year I'm still not fully stable. I did however somewhat accomplish my new year's resolution of "becoming more gangsta than snoop dogg" by adopting a new gangsta persona of kash dollaz, which seems to have caught on.
My aunt died. I made a bunch of new friends in the music scene and I finally felt at home at shows rather than an awkward kid on the side. I fucked up some friendships and I've drifted apart from some important ones as a result of all the emotional shit I went through. I made some really good bonds with people this year that weren't in the picture before all of this.
I'm still at the same job. I'm still getting the alright marks but not the ones I want. I decided to help people out mentally and emotionally in the future rather than physically like originally planned. I'm still drifting through life not making the most out of anything I have.
I like video games too much. And music. Nothing's really changed.
2005 summed up: Great socially, horrible emotionally, great for me to change my personality and outlook. Goes down in the books as one of the worst years of my life all due to one event that really shook me, but I'm still really grateful for it. I don't know. It's been a fucking retarded year. I'm glad it'll be over come tomorrow midnight. And I really hope that things'll be different in 2006, cause if not, I'm royally fucked.
Year started off by pushing me into the most emotional mess I've ever been by losing the first and only girl I've loved so far, and as a result turning me into a complete emotional fag who now enjoys romantic comedies something fierce. Got jerked around emotionally some more, and at the end of the year I'm still not fully stable. I did however somewhat accomplish my new year's resolution of "becoming more gangsta than snoop dogg" by adopting a new gangsta persona of kash dollaz, which seems to have caught on.
My aunt died. I made a bunch of new friends in the music scene and I finally felt at home at shows rather than an awkward kid on the side. I fucked up some friendships and I've drifted apart from some important ones as a result of all the emotional shit I went through. I made some really good bonds with people this year that weren't in the picture before all of this.
I'm still at the same job. I'm still getting the alright marks but not the ones I want. I decided to help people out mentally and emotionally in the future rather than physically like originally planned. I'm still drifting through life not making the most out of anything I have.
I like video games too much. And music. Nothing's really changed.
2005 summed up: Great socially, horrible emotionally, great for me to change my personality and outlook. Goes down in the books as one of the worst years of my life all due to one event that really shook me, but I'm still really grateful for it. I don't know. It's been a fucking retarded year. I'm glad it'll be over come tomorrow midnight. And I really hope that things'll be different in 2006, cause if not, I'm royally fucked.