We need to talk...
Before i begin i just want to start out and say that i love you all. I treasure your friendships and each of you have contributed something special to who i am today. But lately ive been thinking and i really have some things i need to get off my chest, so here it goes:
Why is drama such a HUGE part of our group of friends?? Today i was having a conversation with Keith and i realized that the only time i ever hear about drama or deal with drama is when i hang out with you guys. It has gotten to the point where honestly i try to find other things to do other than go out with everybody because i KNOW that there will be drama.
Paul, you are one of my best friends. But lately man, you have been in a funk. I understand that you are upset about things, but buddy, you KILL a night out when you sit at the table and sulk or just take off without saying a word. I HATE to see you hurt, but bro, what do you think it does to everyone else when you such a downer almost everytime we go out???
Leigh, i know that you try and fix things with paul and you guys end up talking forever about God know what. But sweetie, you are fucking with my boy. You need to tell him the TRUTH. You guys are either going to be together, or not. There is NO IN BETWEEN. You can not have him when its convenient, but when you want other things shrug him off. I understand that you dont want a relationship but, OWN UP and tell the truth. The truth hurts sometimes, but at least its the truth and not some sugar coated lie. I know you care about paul, but this whole situation causes SO much unnecessary drama.
Max, you are my dogg. But player, you are SO cocky. I hate the fact that you think you can get ANY girl you want. I hate the fact that you think you are God's gift to women. And i HATE the fact that you think you are the biggest pimp in the world. I admit, you have some skill, but dude be meek about it, dont be cocky. There is a lot to be said for those who let their actions do the talking and dont brag about it.
ALl these things guys are just a few things i have really noticed lately. They KILL me. So much to the point that i have told myself that if it doesnt stop i really am going to cut down on my chill time. I treasure your friendships- each and every one. But guys all this SHIT is bringing ME down. And to be honest that is the LAST thing i need. I dont need to get depressed all the time, i dont need to learn to be cocky, and i dont need to know how to fuck with people. I already know how to do all that. What i want to learn from you all is how to love, how to care, and how to be friends who dont have drama each and every single day. im sick of it. And im not going to deal with it anymore. So take this with a grain of salt. Ignore it, take it in and apply it, whatever you want. This is how I feel and how I see things. Also, i dont want ANYONE to comment on this posting. If you want to talk about it with me, thats great, call me, email me, IM me... whatever. But this is just a blanket post to all of you. No one other than you who is reading this, or I who is writing this should know what is said beyond this point unless we talk. This is not a condemnation of you guys... rather an attempt at an exhortation. Exhortation is defined as a STRONG encouragement. Well i exhort you to think about this stuff as i have, and attempt to fix it.
In no way am i perfect. And in no way am i trying to portray myself as such... but guys, its really getting old. its time to move on past all of this and grow together, not a part.
Why is drama such a HUGE part of our group of friends?? Today i was having a conversation with Keith and i realized that the only time i ever hear about drama or deal with drama is when i hang out with you guys. It has gotten to the point where honestly i try to find other things to do other than go out with everybody because i KNOW that there will be drama.
Paul, you are one of my best friends. But lately man, you have been in a funk. I understand that you are upset about things, but buddy, you KILL a night out when you sit at the table and sulk or just take off without saying a word. I HATE to see you hurt, but bro, what do you think it does to everyone else when you such a downer almost everytime we go out???
Leigh, i know that you try and fix things with paul and you guys end up talking forever about God know what. But sweetie, you are fucking with my boy. You need to tell him the TRUTH. You guys are either going to be together, or not. There is NO IN BETWEEN. You can not have him when its convenient, but when you want other things shrug him off. I understand that you dont want a relationship but, OWN UP and tell the truth. The truth hurts sometimes, but at least its the truth and not some sugar coated lie. I know you care about paul, but this whole situation causes SO much unnecessary drama.
Max, you are my dogg. But player, you are SO cocky. I hate the fact that you think you can get ANY girl you want. I hate the fact that you think you are God's gift to women. And i HATE the fact that you think you are the biggest pimp in the world. I admit, you have some skill, but dude be meek about it, dont be cocky. There is a lot to be said for those who let their actions do the talking and dont brag about it.
ALl these things guys are just a few things i have really noticed lately. They KILL me. So much to the point that i have told myself that if it doesnt stop i really am going to cut down on my chill time. I treasure your friendships- each and every one. But guys all this SHIT is bringing ME down. And to be honest that is the LAST thing i need. I dont need to get depressed all the time, i dont need to learn to be cocky, and i dont need to know how to fuck with people. I already know how to do all that. What i want to learn from you all is how to love, how to care, and how to be friends who dont have drama each and every single day. im sick of it. And im not going to deal with it anymore. So take this with a grain of salt. Ignore it, take it in and apply it, whatever you want. This is how I feel and how I see things. Also, i dont want ANYONE to comment on this posting. If you want to talk about it with me, thats great, call me, email me, IM me... whatever. But this is just a blanket post to all of you. No one other than you who is reading this, or I who is writing this should know what is said beyond this point unless we talk. This is not a condemnation of you guys... rather an attempt at an exhortation. Exhortation is defined as a STRONG encouragement. Well i exhort you to think about this stuff as i have, and attempt to fix it.
In no way am i perfect. And in no way am i trying to portray myself as such... but guys, its really getting old. its time to move on past all of this and grow together, not a part.