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i don't know what's going through your head, but you're doing a great job of destroying yourself. Fine, you want a drink every none and then, you want to drink socially, alright. I never cared. But you become a lush? fuck you. OK you need the meds for the migraines, you're in pain after the car accident, but you're going to abuse them? You're going to be a pill popper? And now weed? Remember when you were above that? Oh and now you don't like it that much, you just need to relax at the party. But you're there doing it. And it's more and more. At first it was a rarity. Once every 3-4 months, then monthly, now weekly. Guess what's next. And you say I'm over reacting? remember you said that the first time you wake up completely burnt. Remember you said that the first time you wake up with some other dude in your bed. Remember you said that the first time you bump an adderall. Remember you said that the first time you're not sure what that blunt was rolled with. Remember you said that the first time you're pushing that little piece of opium into the chamber of your bong. Remember you said that when you're coming down off your first hit of mescaline. You don't think I know exactly where this goes? Look around me. Look at everyone around me and tell me that again. You've known me better than anyone, and I'd like to say the same for you, but now you're becoming just another one of them. You are not special. You want to make yourself into a shell? You want to make yourself no better than whatever you can fill yourself up with? Be my guest, but for the first time in our lives, I won't be there for you when you come calling. I've been running my life around you for long enough, now you're crossing a line.