why hello again.
i found this thing is still here. collecting dust. just when i have shit to say. its awsome. anyways down to business.
im back in new york. i dont have a home yet. im staying at my moms on the couch and at amandas in the guest room. its pretty cool. still looking for a car and a job but that will come in time.
i have an amazing girlfriend. or so i think. see because im not giving this out to anyone and its to vent and for you all to see i dont mind saying it here. im nervious. im a ugly fat kid. shes a hott chick. i might be good at what i do,but i still dont deserve her. i snuck a peek on her myspace like a jelous jerk and found not to my suprize that all the dudes she was talking to before me when pretty damn not fat ugly kids.
also now that ive found this perfect little place to vent, and i doubt people even remember me im discontent with my life. aside from amanda ive fucked every other aspect of my life up. hard.
im done to many drugs and im all fucked up, i have no credit and cant afford any bills, my dad's started his desent to death (i dont care who admits it) i feel like my world is caving in. and it seems im not the only one.
ive gots lots more to say but its early and i wanna sleep so i can wake up early and get breakfast for me and manda. let me know whos still out there cause im gonna be using this alot more.
im back in new york. i dont have a home yet. im staying at my moms on the couch and at amandas in the guest room. its pretty cool. still looking for a car and a job but that will come in time.
i have an amazing girlfriend. or so i think. see because im not giving this out to anyone and its to vent and for you all to see i dont mind saying it here. im nervious. im a ugly fat kid. shes a hott chick. i might be good at what i do,but i still dont deserve her. i snuck a peek on her myspace like a jelous jerk and found not to my suprize that all the dudes she was talking to before me when pretty damn not fat ugly kids.
also now that ive found this perfect little place to vent, and i doubt people even remember me im discontent with my life. aside from amanda ive fucked every other aspect of my life up. hard.
im done to many drugs and im all fucked up, i have no credit and cant afford any bills, my dad's started his desent to death (i dont care who admits it) i feel like my world is caving in. and it seems im not the only one.
ive gots lots more to say but its early and i wanna sleep so i can wake up early and get breakfast for me and manda. let me know whos still out there cause im gonna be using this alot more.