i swore
i swore it wouldnt happen again but it has. i promised id never do it again but i have. i cant believe myslef. i need a vacation. i need to get out of long island and out of my mind. all i really need is this one special someone. how can see be so great, its simple. i dont spend my days and nights wishing to be, not only with...but to prove im worth being with, unless this person is special. i dont care what other people think but this is redicklous. i need to grow some balls and tell her all this but my journal is all that knows. i need advice so feel free to tell me this once.a quote from my favorite movie come to mind. "if she died,i'd die.if she told me to cut off my left arm,i would.so yeah man i guess....." watch the movie to figure it out. HELP ME IM FALLING AGAIN. but this time my heart might not recover. am i really that fat and ugly that womans go out of there way to ignore me? save me from myself.FUCK