late
its 9:18am people what am i still doing up? its bacuse no one elese is up. my heaven is to live right now for ever. my parents are asleep my brother asleep even my dog is asleep. this is what makes me happy avoiding the world. about 12 people told me to feel better today because of this journal i dont know if that means i have alot of freinds of people just need to find better things to do online. i dont feel "better" in the slightest. my world seems to be crumbling at the foundations. FUN is what that is. its getting real early but im not going to sleep till i here those first morning footsteps. that could take a while tho. seeing how my brother didnt go to sleep till a few hours ago and my parents both must have stayed up late and popped there "sleeping" pills. again i must say im not in the slightest bit of a careing mood. i cant wait till i go out to that big Deer Park Dix Hills fight and my dad is yelling behind me not to go and im grounded and the such. i cant believe its this late. there are the footsteps. goodbye all.