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i wanted to write this before i forgot. i didnt know what time it was till just now. i have been sleeping for about an hour. i have dreamed tonight. because i dont sleep anymore i dont really dream anymore either. tonight i did both. i woke about two minutes ago with the feeling of sickness and pain all around me. this often happenes when i dream. i had the same dream as before but more of it as always. tonight for everyones amusment im going to tell it. if you dont like me, are scared of me,if you love me, or might love me dont read this.
im standing there scared and alone. my mother has left me again. i dont know where i am. it feels like ive been here forever. there alot of people but i dont know any of them and im scared. where is everone i know. im only six years old. im still so young. everyone has left me and im alone. i start lookin i dont know for what and i dont know why, but i start looking. finally i give up and sit down its really dark but i can see a light somewhere in the distance. and theres someone there. this is where i get confused. i start running to the light and its my mother only she is sick and there are alot of people around her. im sad i know this cause i can still feel it although im awake. there taking her away. the poeple. i start yelling but they dont listen. they take her. and i dont wanna leave the light because if i do ill get lost. so i stay there. now im crying i dont know what to do. then my dad comes and he takes me from the light to this place. but now im older. but im still scared. he tells me mommy was bad and i cant stay with her anymore. this makes me cry but she says its ok and so i fake a smile. and she smiles back. now its far in the future and im like 15. im at my grandmas and i see my mom. she seems upset. she has blood allover and she crying she is goin to die. i know it. and in my dream i, for some reason hit her. she starts crying because she thinks i hate her. i tell her i love her and the people come again. alot of them. then i wake up.
in real life im sad when i wake up and my stomach hurts. when you see me give me a hug and mabey some insite on whats wrong with my head.
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matt c
im standing there scared and alone. my mother has left me again. i dont know where i am. it feels like ive been here forever. there alot of people but i dont know any of them and im scared. where is everone i know. im only six years old. im still so young. everyone has left me and im alone. i start lookin i dont know for what and i dont know why, but i start looking. finally i give up and sit down its really dark but i can see a light somewhere in the distance. and theres someone there. this is where i get confused. i start running to the light and its my mother only she is sick and there are alot of people around her. im sad i know this cause i can still feel it although im awake. there taking her away. the poeple. i start yelling but they dont listen. they take her. and i dont wanna leave the light because if i do ill get lost. so i stay there. now im crying i dont know what to do. then my dad comes and he takes me from the light to this place. but now im older. but im still scared. he tells me mommy was bad and i cant stay with her anymore. this makes me cry but she says its ok and so i fake a smile. and she smiles back. now its far in the future and im like 15. im at my grandmas and i see my mom. she seems upset. she has blood allover and she crying she is goin to die. i know it. and in my dream i, for some reason hit her. she starts crying because she thinks i hate her. i tell her i love her and the people come again. alot of them. then i wake up.
in real life im sad when i wake up and my stomach hurts. when you see me give me a hug and mabey some insite on whats wrong with my head.
john homan is the man read the profile.
the narratior of this fixed up life
matt c