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i'm trying to go to bed way early since school starts soon. if i'm commuting, i will need to get up around 5:30. i'll do what needs to be done.
i spent all day reading and playing guitar. the more i do those things, the less i think about how i feel. the more i pushing my feelings into the background, the more angry, lonely, and critical i feel. i dunno what to say about that. if i'm angry at me, i'd like to be angry at me. not pretend like i'm angry at anything else and be a douche.
i'm really tired. in its own way, playing guitar is an outlet of feelings. but i'm just trying to learn really hard. i'm addicted to learning. whatever. i like learning, and i'll just keep doing what i want.
i spent all day reading and playing guitar. the more i do those things, the less i think about how i feel. the more i pushing my feelings into the background, the more angry, lonely, and critical i feel. i dunno what to say about that. if i'm angry at me, i'd like to be angry at me. not pretend like i'm angry at anything else and be a douche.
i'm really tired. in its own way, playing guitar is an outlet of feelings. but i'm just trying to learn really hard. i'm addicted to learning. whatever. i like learning, and i'll just keep doing what i want.