well...
there are things in life that i would love to accomplish and i think with some effort i will be able to achieve them, but some of them seem to be a stretch as my ambition to do many things is out the window.
1. Figure out what i truly want to do with my life.
- i had thought for so long that the path i was on was the one i wanted. then i figured out a few things.
a. I don't want to be away from home as long as this job requires
b. is a life in the sales realm really worth it
c. why did i choose this path in the first place?
the whole deal behind it was to follow in the footsteps of my step-father as he seemed ready and willing to help me out in any way possible, though that isn't proving true as of late. sure he would help me with conceptualizing things i couldn't handle (which is rare), but when it comes to helping me prepare i have yet to see him do so. he could help me get my foot in the door with all of his connections and find me an internship, but i've yet to see an offer. sure, i could ask him about it, but then again what's the point.
2. Record an album and tour on it.
- i've heard that i have talent, and i honestly don't agree at times. but i guess i won't argue with the fact that i can play an instrument better than some people can. that is not the point. I want to involve myself with people who are actively searching for ways to better themselves and create something that hasn't necessarily been heard before. or maybe it has been heard, but who cares. it would be better than what most people listen to anyways. for me, my ultimate ambition is to tour. to go around the united states and play songs that i have been apart of for people who may not ever remember what they saw or heard. for some reason, living that life seems far from dull and gut-wrenching.
3. Start a family that I can provide for and love with all that i am and more.
- granted this needs number one to be set in stone, but it's what i want more than anything in life. i can honestly say that being married and having a family is what i desire most though i haven't found an avenue for that to fall into place and i'm definitely not trying to rush it either. life takes it's twists and turns and we all have our time. i'm going to roll with the punches and await my fate in this regard.
i'm sure there are many more, but these are the top three.
i hope you all are doing well.
<3
matt
1. Figure out what i truly want to do with my life.
- i had thought for so long that the path i was on was the one i wanted. then i figured out a few things.
a. I don't want to be away from home as long as this job requires
b. is a life in the sales realm really worth it
c. why did i choose this path in the first place?
the whole deal behind it was to follow in the footsteps of my step-father as he seemed ready and willing to help me out in any way possible, though that isn't proving true as of late. sure he would help me with conceptualizing things i couldn't handle (which is rare), but when it comes to helping me prepare i have yet to see him do so. he could help me get my foot in the door with all of his connections and find me an internship, but i've yet to see an offer. sure, i could ask him about it, but then again what's the point.
2. Record an album and tour on it.
- i've heard that i have talent, and i honestly don't agree at times. but i guess i won't argue with the fact that i can play an instrument better than some people can. that is not the point. I want to involve myself with people who are actively searching for ways to better themselves and create something that hasn't necessarily been heard before. or maybe it has been heard, but who cares. it would be better than what most people listen to anyways. for me, my ultimate ambition is to tour. to go around the united states and play songs that i have been apart of for people who may not ever remember what they saw or heard. for some reason, living that life seems far from dull and gut-wrenching.
3. Start a family that I can provide for and love with all that i am and more.
- granted this needs number one to be set in stone, but it's what i want more than anything in life. i can honestly say that being married and having a family is what i desire most though i haven't found an avenue for that to fall into place and i'm definitely not trying to rush it either. life takes it's twists and turns and we all have our time. i'm going to roll with the punches and await my fate in this regard.
i'm sure there are many more, but these are the top three.
i hope you all are doing well.
<3
matt